Understanding is not a strong quality of people that I know. No matter though, it just makes my life all that much more interesting and challenging, ugh...
Pain and suffering most of the time is at high level and I'm not the best at dealing with it either but I try and keep the complaining as low as possible but I'm reaching my limit as far as keeping things in.
I mean give me a fucking break, I am homeless, jobless, no phone, deal with very bad issues that kill most and everyone is like "So fix it." OMG, I didn't think of that!!! I work very hard to improve my situation and I have A LOT OF NOTHING TO WORK WITH. The floor is dropped out from under me pretty much every other day and if it's not one thing that blows up in my face it's another.
For instance, I'm trying to get a job and bills keep sucking the life out of my ways of making thing happen. My family helps as much as they can but they are hurting as well. I have others that are just simply out to hurt me over and over because they feel that my life isn't hard enough. I feel bad because they have turned in to cold and spiteful souls because of me. How does one move on and feel good about them selves after something like that?
So feeling like a shitbag and stressed beyond stressed, I get the flu, pain on top of pain and my neck swells up to where I can't breath. Went to the ER and they cut my neck open, this shit hurt. No one was around to pick me up from the ER and my neck won't stop bleeding till the morning.... time to walk to where I'm staying the night in the cold, in pain, flu chills, lol.
So fuck... I'm a bad guy but I'm never going to give up trying to make things good. Go ahead world do your worst, I'm not going to LOSE!!!