"I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain."

Awsome words, the fist time somebody told me that i was shaking in fear, absolutly paralized by it, and static.
But then, León, came to me and told me that, and now i'm trying to keep that wisdom in me.
And i mean, is hard, for me is hard as hell getting out of my fear. The fear and the lonelynes have keep me frozen all these years. And you wanna know something?. The fear never gets more easy to carry, it doesn't go away, even when all lights are on, the fears is always there.
I don't know why i'm so sensible to it, i really don't. But these past few days i've been in a constant state of terror.
Maybe i'm becoming weak, maybe the fact that i don't usualy cry for help to the outside. Maybe, and more likely, all my masks of strength are falling down now that i have no reason to be strong for others anymore. Now i need to be strong for my self, and i don't know if i want to... i mean... i don't know if i can... i don't know how...

Well, anyway, this will be the hadest week in my life, all about tests to my body, my spirt, and my knowlege.

I hope to resist, and keep the fear out of me...