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Im sorry for this
18 years ago
I'm waiting for the day I feel a natural emotion.
I tried to go to sleep
I ended up crying in the fetal position
Holding a pillow, attempting to comfort myself
I feel sick
I feel alone
I hate this
I hate myself, I want out, I don't know what to do
I still feel alienated from everywhere,
Even here.
I got the urges again
I'm sick of it
Why do I have to feel this way
... Im sorry. I feel like a drama causing attention whore
But I dont want attention... i want help, i dont want to feel like this anymore. Fuck I wish I could look forward to something.
I ended up crying in the fetal position
Holding a pillow, attempting to comfort myself
I feel sick
I feel alone
I hate this
I hate myself, I want out, I don't know what to do
I still feel alienated from everywhere,
Even here.
I got the urges again
I'm sick of it
Why do I have to feel this way
... Im sorry. I feel like a drama causing attention whore
But I dont want attention... i want help, i dont want to feel like this anymore. Fuck I wish I could look forward to something.
I do.
I still do.
I've bee trying really hard to get passed these emotions.
I've told you time and time again that I'll be here for you ANYTIME you need me, Im just a call away.
I know it's hard to hear, I know it's hard to remember in those dark times when your emotions have complete control over you, but you never lack people who love and care for you. We are always here and we always think of you. It's not just words on a screen. I know what you feel, I know what you're going through, and I would give anything to spare you this.
Much, much love,
KC
I hate letting my emotions control me.
I know that there are people that love, but they always seem so far away, even the ones who live in my town.
im a drug abuser
thanks though