Excuse me for this... Chikushō! Why is it bad things happen to such good people? When you want to be there to protect them, you can't! You try to get there to protect them and take the pain away as soon as you can, but it'll never be soon enough! They say they'll be fine, but you know deep inside, that's not true! They're hurting, so very badly, and all you can offer are words of support and comfort! They are never truly enough, though! Just give me anesthesia for the burning voice within me... I'm... a bit better now. I got that out and have J-pop blasting. J-pop is anesthesia for my soul. It won't make the pain and worry go away or any better, but it makes it where I can no longer feel it. There's only one thing that will heal the pain and worry, and I'll have that in time. I just have to suffer through things until then and do what I can to ease the pain. But, I can say with a simple plainness, the pain I feel is not my own. To be honest, I'd rather it be another's pain than my own, especially in this situation. I'll be to where I can end the pain and worry, and bring the happiness and promises. Until then, I'll drown in J-pop's sweetness once again, and keeping on bare feet, I want to have a taste, indulge, and freely eat. And I know a certain someone will read this and might start feeling bad, I've a word to them: "Don't." It's not your fault, you can help it, and I'd rather help carry the burden than for you to carry it alone.