I had a huge panic episode as soon as I got settled in at Big Bear and my parents were so worried about me that they were forced to bring me home this morning. I was worrying over my schoolwork, my dying grandma, and (as petty as it sounds) not having any form of entertainment up in Big Bear since I couldn't get internet in the lodge, all the boats were taken off the lake, and almost everywhere was closed. Everything hit all at once and I couldn't deal, I had a breakdown on the spot. So I was forced to come home this morning.

I still feel really bad that my parents had to see that and take time out of their day to drive me home and then go all the way back, but I'm glad they did, and I hope they enjoy their vacation up there. Meanwhile, I've already made an appointment to see my therapist again. Having that happen utterly confirmed that I'm still not well and need to talk to somebody again. So that's that.

So, yeah. I don't feel emo about it or anything, just a set of circumstances beyond my control, and it made me realize that I'm not well and have to deal with it, so I'm gonna try to learn from it and move on.

# Twilight is a dangerous role-model. Keep that saga away from your kids. Teach them to think, not to conform.