I'm seeing pain again. Fears and worries, deep scars of the heart. Reality hits like a brick, and no matter what I do now, there will be doubt until all is finished. I'm canceling my project and will probably way less active. I need time. More time. Time to do things that need to be done. I can understand all of these concerns and worries, but I fear distance is near, and I don't mean one any can cross physically. I'm worried, not for myself. I don't want to see this resurface and let things fall into a void of pain and despair. Yet, although not blind to it, I am helpless in anything I can do. All I have is the future, I need a solution for the present. Many would give up, just stop trying, it's hopeless. I'm not. Although I can not show it, I'm not giving up, not for my life,

Oh, how could I...?
Why should I...?
What a fool... I am.
I can't take it anymore, so I'm declaring war!
Shoot for the heart, no turning back!
To see your smiling face, would be the end of all the pain!
Love is blind, and so am I.
I'll stay by your side so things will finally come around.