I AM FINE, THANK YOU FOR ASKING

I AM GLAD THAT YOU ARE ALRIGHT. ALL SHOULD BE RIGHT.

I'VE BEEN PLAYING SKYWARD SWORD


MY FAVORITE PART IS THE PART WHERE YOU HAVE A FENCING MATCH WITH A ROBOT PIRATE ON A MECHANICAL SHIP IN THE OCEAN DESERT

I'VE BEEN PLAYING SOUL REAVER.

BECAUSE I AM OLD AS FUCK.

WAIT, SOUL REAVER OR SOUL BLADE?

I AM GOOD. I've been zelda-ing. :D

ALSO, GET BETTER SOON AND oh god, good luck with presentation and HOPEFULLY STRESS WORKS ITSELF OUT?

And what happened with your job? D:

ALSO HOW IS YOUR FOOT? I forgot to reply on LJ. =(

IT IS BETTER. I AM APPARENTLY FALLING APART THOUGH

One piece at a time. ;_;

Also D= Though I get what you mean. Are they still tampering with it a lot, or did the holidays just screw it up for a bit?

No, what happened is that I was scheduled to work in the design studio. Some people were making use of it, though, so I went to the painting studio instead. This somehow triggered everyone in the office to panic because one instance of one class occupying a room and me moving to another FOR ONE HOUR means... I have to have my entire schedule retooled?

It's just a lot of I don't know where I'm supposed to go and when, because my formerly concrete schedule has been tampered with to the point that I don't even fucking know. I DON'T KNOW.

And I guess it's more mildly irritating than... infuriating. Just one of those TWITCH TWITCH things.

I am recovering from Dying. Which in this case means trying to get my voice back?

I...sort of have one at this point. I neeeed it by Saturday because there's a party!

Oh man, I hope I lose my voice. :C

I have a presentation to do, and if I have a legit reason to get it postponed long enough for me to calm down about it...

...pretend you've lost it?

I just went in, sat down, and talked to the ceiling. Which is a marked improvement to my strategy of have a seizure!

... Man, I could NEVER be an orator, LOL.

oh hey! That is an improvement!

feh, I hear ya

Support group for PEOPLE WHO SHOULD NEVER SPEAK IN PUBLIC.

OMG YES! I am so for this.

...The pathetic part is I'm perfectly fine DANCING in public, but speaking? hell no.

oh gawd i know how you feel atleast on the panic and anxiety part on amain.. if i dont have meds im a wrectched wreck.... hell im disabled because of it , its so bad arggh

I kind of have been going into "deer in headlights" mode lately. I just completely shut down. I can't hold a conversation, I can't think, I can't hardly do anything right. I just sit there, pretty much the living embodiment of the Blue Screen of Death, and stare at whoever is talking to me, or whatever I need to do, or WHATEVER.

It's just ARGLBLARGL.




Do you have any way to talk to somebody about meds, though? D:

im currently medicated .. sorta,,, as for talking to anyone. no, none ect i lost my docs due to my medical insurance change over which didnt cover kaiser permanente anymore so im in the transition of looking for a new doctor which is a pain in the butt, i need to do it soon cause im runnig out of one.

i Just recently got off of Clonazepam... but im waiting for a month or 2 before i decide i want to have a friend with a friend like i promised, alcohol + clonazepam = very bad i had first hand.
still on Citalopram/Celexa atm at 20mg.... so well dunno.. ive been coping for a long time.. and i mean a really long time its my disability...

Well, that does happen. Focus on yer schoolin' 'til it's clear.

Trying. ;_;

Cool! Keep it up.

OMG OMG OMG....good luck

THANKEE. |3

DONFORST LIKE A CHAMP. >:C

If I feel less sick, I may have to make a monocle out of my Goldschlager cap or something.

afkKAKFKAFJAKFJAFKJ

YES YES YES.

IT WILL BE AMAZING

I am emo as per usual. :p

Awww. What's wrong? D:

Relationships are stressful, life is stressful... You know, the basics. XD

Life is what gets me. I don't have to worry about much else than LIFE right now.

AND GODDAMN IT, LIFE, I NEED A BREAK.

Yeah, pissed and stressed at end of semester exams. I know the feeling. My last asshole teacher who's so scatter brained he fails to add up his own marks properly has failed me and now I have to redo his subject when I passed it. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

I have a writing seminar class where the final paper will make or break our grade. We were told it was due, like, late in the month and then randomly were told LOL YOU NEED TO HAVE IT IN IN TWO DAYS. Then she laughed at our stress.

I... fffff... :|

SOME PROFESSORS MAN.

lol, indeed. I don't know why since my tutor's a nice guy but even giving him the total benefit of the doubt and assuming he's allowed to mark me wrong three times for each wrong answer, I still pass... And he gave me a phail.

Sometimes, shit just gets like that for some reason. Maybe it's some weird grading scale thing where certain things are worth more than others? Then it gets hard to calculate.

Maybe bring up your concerns. Or have you tried that, to no avail?

Nah, I got the result yesterday and it's Saturday for me now. I'll email him over the weekend to ask 'wtf?'. Ah well, hope your presentation goes well.

Doing ten hours of projects every few days. It numbs the mind.

That sounds like my design class. :D



... ;_;

Well seven hours of mine were spent designing a portable stage that was wind resistant. I've never put so much B.S. on a page. And I've never gotten such a good grade for it too.

I just spend a vast majority of my life, locked in a studio with project after project. XD

Dunno if I could ever design a stage. I just do a lot of sculptures and shit.

No. I'm sure a retarded monkey could do it. Knowing my grade trend, I'm sure that the retarded monkey would manage to get a better grade too. Idiotic drivel gets the best grade in that class.

I'm getting pretty mad at my job to. :I

Let's fight the power. :|

I've got the pitchforks if you've got the torches.

SO MANY TORCHES.

CAN YOU GET DRUNK?!

This is kind of my solution to every problem.

Hmmm, seasonal affective disorder comes with alcoholism....

OH MY GOD, I have actually been drinking WAY more than normal. I mean, before it was only for special occasions. Now, I have two flasks in my desk and I take a swig every night just to take the edge off.

Or, in the case of Goldschlager, SO MANY SIPS. And then nothing matters and everything is okay and I can totes do whatever needs to be done. But my stock is running out.




... I NEED TO FIND HEALTHIER MEANS OF COPING, BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO BE AN ALCOHOLIC. ;_;

We are in the same boat then.

We aren't total alcoholics, but we also use it to cope,

We also like drinking socially and also because it tastes good.

And we're terrified we have been transformed into alcoholics because our society tells us drinking is bad and if you drink 'too much*' you are an alcoholic and a bad person who neglects and abuses everything at the same time.

Which leads to more drinking.


*poorly defined

Because it tastes good is a big yes. I am such a liquor snob. :|

But, yeah. I feel bad talking about the fact I've been drinking at all because some people take it as, "LOL YOU TRYIN' TO SEEM LIKE A PARTIER" when it's just, like... my life is so boring I have nothing else to talk about. Unless people want to hear about, like, my experiences with the science building cats (which is my other stress reliever; nothing calms the nerves like a big, floofy kitty playing with your shoe laces).

And also because my family keeps saying OUR FAMILY HAS A HISTORY OF ALCOHOLISM DO YOU HAVE A PROBLEM, AMBER? DO YOU?

N-not that I know of, bro, but I am beginning to wonder. ;_;

*/me reads the journal

*/me looks at your avatar

*/me wants to hug that so bad. ;;

Isn't it the most adorable? ;u;

I CAN'T FIND THE ORIGINAL SUBMISSION, THOUGH. Aaaaa, did they delete it? D:

Oh no! D: I've had that happen, too. I've got some really good commissioned art on my computer that doesn't exist on the net anymore. :< I have so many "SUBMISSION DELETED" in my favorites folder here it's not even funny. ;;

It is a terrible day when cute things get baleeted. :<

Well if your options are a panic attack or 'the most obnoxious, impossible to follow presenter ever', I'd go with the second. Sounds like it would be fun, provided your presentation actually ends up presenting your point in the process. But then again, I'm a loud, obnoxious person ALL of the time. So maybe it's just that. Also; that's implying it's a decision and not a reaction. .-.

Alternatively; You could, like, completely snap and start some kind of flash mob or something. Get everyone else who doesn't want to do their presentations and tell the man "NO. Fuck YOU." And, like... I dunno... break a lamp or something. That'll show 'em you're serious business. Yeah! Try making people do presentations when you have a lamp to fix! The lighting would be ALL off, it would be a catastrophe! Only a completely kooky mook would make someone do a presentation with poor lighting! >|C

There. Problem solved. I'll just put that up on the board.
Wulf - 1 / Intelligent society - 0

Also; Don't complain about lymph nodes, unless it's friggin' arctic where ever you are. I was sick, went outside in New England cold for all of 15 minutes, came back inside. It didn't just hurt to turn my head, it hurt to have a neck. The went from hot to cold and back to hot and were like "OH MY GOD WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO US I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS. D:>"
At least with you you can just... stare straight ahead... FOREVER. @_@
So find something insanely interesting immediately to your front, and settle in. xD

OKAY I DIED LAUGHING AT BREAKING A LAMP. Like, it is a relatively small class, so I could only imagine my flash mob would be me and my sister and I WOULD HAVE BROUGHT A LAMP FOR THE SOLE PURPOSE OF SMASHING IT. Oh my god, I could totally do that one day. I should totally do that.

And slkfjalsklkfjlaks as for your other comment? Yeah, it kinda... hurt to have a neck. Or the entire left side of my goddamn body from the neck, up. And it's December, so walking to class was like, "HEY YOU KNOW HOW YOU WERE STARTING TO FEEL BETTER? Well, it's FUCKING FREEZING so I hope you like AGONY."

I never knew any cold sensitivity could be worse than that of my front teeth, but MY FUCKING GOD. WHAT.

Now the hardest choice of all... What kind of lamp? Because in my mind, it's, like, one of those little nightstand lamps, with the generic lampshade, and the lil' tiny twisty knob on the side for on and off. But you could also go industrial, which, considering you said it's a small class, might be better. Just carry one of those giant industrial halogen lights. THE GIANT LIGHT STICKS FROM MIDDLE SCHOOL CEILINGS. Although if I remember correctly, there's toxic gases inside of those. So maybe that's a horrible idea and I should be put away for giving you horrible ideas. FOR SHAME. ;_;

Although, flash-mobbing with a gas-mask would be intense. xD

And sorry to hear that. Left-side-of-body thing. Gotta suck. :/
And it's only been Dec. for a day. Beginning of Nov. we had an ice storm that took out the power AND HEATER for two days straight. AND GUESS WHO HAD TO GO OUTSIDE AND MOVE A FUCKING TREE. I'LL GIVE YOU A HINT; Me. Dx
Moving a goddamned tree, with lymph nodes of SOLID MEAT-ICE, and a house that's practically as cold as the outside to come back to... I love New England, but I hate it's winters. Coastal winds and whatnot. Fucking Connecticut. xD

But yeah. Practical solutions. Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhssssssscarf? Yeah. Get a scarf. But make it obnoxious BECAUSE YOU CAN. Like... I dunno. Raziel's scarf thingy, or Hotsuma's giant-ass ninja scarf from Shinobi. The PS2 one, not the side-scroller that makes me want to hurt myself. FUCKING PRECISION JUMPING.

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