WRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

.. WRY?... Anyways, I personally don't see relevance in a friend knowing all these things about me, particularly when we don't talk all that often. I try to connect to people only as much as they try to connect to me so that I don't end up getting drained of my effort and attention needlessly. I'm not a cold person mind you, and I take it very seriously that you have asked me to be family like a certain few other friends of yours but at the same time I won't go out of my way to try and connect with you- This is also because I believe such behavior tends to result in 'smothering' so if you're rarely talking with me I presume that it would be a burden for me to start a conversation with you at that point. The reason I don't email you images anymore is because you seem to have some uncertainty about what I'm asking for socially by going out of my way to send them. Where politeness is concerned there are many 'grey areas' with that; You made it a point to mention some odd time ago that you disliked what I said to 'certain friends' of yours. To me what's between me and them is ours to worry about and it is less polite to interrupt the disagreement as an outsider than to have gotten into it in the first place. I get that you are specific about your music interests now, so I won't bother sending you links. None of this changes that I view as a close friend along the lines of family, but it does mean that I will adapt to the situation I'm in.

Momentai! Thanks for your input cousin! ^o^)b

I'm aware about my lesser/lower activity here since long ago, I've been on the chatting side heavily as opposed to how I used to be! XD
And I also take it very serious our relationship as family, I honestly have it in my heart ^w^
I know I've been distanced, this happens too with my real family, it's something natural that happens with me, sadly (and sorry about that!) But I've always been there for when you ask me something directly as I know you are too ^.^;

I'm aware also about the sending of your pics, it was good, nice, but I felt obligued to give you feedback like: "gimme feedback or else...!" haha, (just don't take it on the bad side, it's just a joking way to say what I felt) I still gave you feedback expressing my thoughts about the pics. I know the feedback were lowering in quality over time, until a last one in which I (as far as I remember) I didn't gave you feedback because of being busy with other things and then you stopped sending pics. I know it's my fault and I'm sorry about that.

Now, onto the next point, I'm not sure if this is the case but I do remember clearly one friend (Shane) telling me that you were mean to him because of some critique on a personal artpiece of him and he was so sensitive about that. And I remember giving his message to you, giving my point of view too about the situation. We (you and me) talked a bit about his behaviour, concluding him being a bit overreacting about that. But I certainly don't remember been like "leave my friend alone!".
And if I'm wrong this was that particular case you mention, I would like to know more about the specific case so I can apologyze about this in a more specific way ^__^

About music, there are friends including you, that love to share the music they like to me. I'm not asking anyone to stop it, I dislike to do that to friends because I appreciate their will to share the things they like ^w^ I just have a hard time expressing a particular and more detailed reply about what I think of them and I usually come up with just a simple reply like "I liked/I didn't like it" And I know that simple reply causes bad image on me but there's nothing I can't do to make me say something more interesting on some particular music.

At the end it is your choice if you want to keep sharing me pics and music, and I'm in no way trying to stop you to do it because I'm not disliking it at all, in contrary, this keeps us in contact ^.^

I am aware my biggest faults/flaws with you particularly has been that I have being less present here in FA and too much involved in messenger, giving more priority to new people, commenting less on your pics, talking less with you, diminishing my time with you and I'm sorry for have been like that to you suddenly. I still appreciate you a lot and please remember, good friends that care for you always come back ^w^ I will be trying to fix these problems for the time being. I owe you A LOT for the awesome pics you have done of my characters and for keep being there for me as opposite as other people, and while I know you do them for your own pleasure, I know you wouldn't do them if it weren't also involved some friendly link between us.

I'm also aware I might have make mistakes in the past and maybe acted childish, but since I entered FA and started socializing (something I didn't do before FA) I have been learning many lessons of life and have been learning who are the people who deserve to be in my heart and what are their particular needs, with me trying to please them the best I can ^w^

I'm sorry again for all those things I made to you that made you to adapt in a way that maybe you dislike. And I encourage to continue talking about these issues if there's something else to talk about all this, please.

One thing I'd like to make very clear to begin with- The journal you made here sounded like you were very concerned about knowing where you stand with those who read this journal(since I was reading it I believed at least some of that worry was because of me) and that you really wanted to hear these things, otherwise I wouldn't even bring them up. I don't expect you to change and I'm not disappointed by our interaction as there are others I can enjoy talking to while you're unavailable, but when you post such a personal and expressive journal as you did here it seems like you are directly asking me(and a few others) to take the time to 'get real' with you about relations. Aside from that overly defensive attitude you can have with friends who are bothered I wouldn't ask you to change a thing. Good day cousin ^u^/

Well, the reason for this journal is a self study stating how I am right now and also letting the readers know in case they are interested.
As you know we all evolve over the years, and this list just stated my current behavior/state.
I'm aware of my past mistakes and I'm open to try and fix what can be fixed.

I'm glad you told me about those things in your reply, that helps me out see what past things are still living up to the present and even if I am/were aware of them, the reminding is good to notice them even more and bring more importance to them.

About what I wrote on the level of interactions with my friends, this is just a summary of my current likes and dislikes. I am not forcing these kind of things with my friends and there are still friends of mine that I don't even know their face. Everyone have their interpretetions to this journal and I assure you I just wrote these things out of nowhere just thinking about how I am at this current point of my life, and leaving this journal to stay in the past and remind me if I changed and what changed. Just like the old meme journals I have there, where I wrote my points of view about things, those are still there and looking back at them are interesting to me.

And on the last note, I will search those old notes about this particular case with Shane, I swear I don't remember fighting with you over this, just giving you his message and talking about the situation. And if there was another case you are refering to as well, please let me know. I totally want to know or be reminded.

Good day to you too, cousin ^o^)b

I am indeed referring to that instance, and I wish you a good day as well Digi-bruv' -nod-

The layout of text here is gorgeous ;w;

Thanks XD
Boredom can make us do cool things some times XD