All the damn time.

At least I'm not alone.

Every single day :O/

I see.

Hey, that sounds like today, yesterday, the day before that and on and on.

This is a trend I guess.

I'm feeling this now actually. It really sucks >_>

It does indeed suck.

Yep. It's less common now than it used to be, but it sneaks up worse when it comes.

Mm... Yep exactly the same way here.

It passes. Treat it like waves on the beach. They roll in, they roll out. Otherwise, you just keep thinking about it rolling in.

And then you drown.

Yeeeeeeeeeep. And we don't want that. So.. keep your head up, okay?

Alright hun.

Every friggin' day.

I see.

I used to think that but then I thought maybe I'm just a sick evil person and started living as such. I've been moderately happy since.

Mm..

recently, yes. it'll be better when spring arrives.

Yeah, february is my "bad" month.

December makes me miss people that are gone.

It's worse when it is cold. Thankfully it has been somewhat warm.

Oh man, new Years does that to me in a real bad way.

I have before, on more occasions than I can list. It's been a chronic issue with me, but I recently realized some things that will hopefully help prevent such emotions from cropping up again in the future.

I feel like things I do are wrong because I feel the need to please people, and if there's even any hint that I'm not, then I internalize the blame and think that I'm doing things wrong, that people don't want me around, etc. This is partly because I've let this idea that I need to be respected and well-liked as the be-all/end-all of my existence (when it really doesn't); and partly because for as far back as I can remember, I've been defining my life through pain and all the negative experiences I've had. Anytime someone else has hurt me somehow, I've never really addressed it, and I get upset at the injustice that they hurt me and they won't see it. They won't apologize, nothing bad happens to them, and I'm left holding on to this hurt.

But I realized that it doesn't matter. At the end of the day, if all we are is just dust in the wind, then nothing really matters. Not really. Not to the universe as a whole. So all those bad experiences we have--they don't matter. Neither do the good ones. Not objectively, at least. But that gives us a very unique and strong power: We get to choose what we deem is important to us and what isn't. Only you can choose what matters to you and what doesn't. And if you keep beating yourself up over negative experiences, it's because you're allowing those experiences to matter more to you than the positive ones. So my advice is to just let all that go, because it doesn't matter. If you're going to make something matter, wouldn't you rather it be the good, positive experiences and emotions rather than the negative ones?

I guess that's true.
Good advice.