It's just dawned on me how shitty the past seven years have been. I haven't been talking to my sister as honestly as I'd like to (this has been the case for both of us), and my brother is making my life decisions quite difficult by suggesting all my schooling options.

This isn't a rant, and I'm not asking for help. I'm just going through a moment of sudden realization. I've been tied down by all of this, and my adolescence has been a lot more pressuring than it should be. I've been letting other people control my life, moving towns so many times that I could never really establish a proper social life - and only now have I settled down long enough to really stop and think where I plan to go. After all, I'm nearly seventeen and about two more years from being able to move out. One thing's for sure, I don't want to feel like my parents are top priority any longer. I'm being held down by years of subtle blackmail and the dependency of my parents; there's an issue with control, and relying on manipulating other people.

It's an unhealthy lifestyle for me to be living, and I can't believe I've been stuck in this position for so long... so it's about time I thought about ways to get out.