I have been gone awhile, as you could probably tell...Things are changing for me. I can't seem to recognize that boy looking back at me when I look into a mirror. 3 Years ago, I was someone who was blissfully ignorant. Someone who cared for nothing but himself. Now...I'm not. I care for others, and wish to be around others. I don't want to be the big guy, or the coolest kid in town. My inner child has taken a long time to realize who I was, was really mean, inconsiderate, and in general, a brat.

I've matured from then, and learned what love really is. Not the looks, and not what they have. Personallity, kindness, and support is rather what it could be. I've realized that I prefer males over females. I've learned to accept who I am, and what I've done.

I've also experienced a few deaths in these past few years...And those hit hard on the heart...One of my cats; Hazy, died...She wanted to follow the ones she loved on a walk, and was brought to a sudden end...She died later that night. I cried for hours...and fell asleep thinking of her. She was barely 2 years old.

I've been through loss, love, and growth. Things have been hard for me, and I'm lost. I'm trying to understand myself, and do what's best for myself and others.

Lately...people at school have been making fun of me for being a furry and being gay...And I've been thinking about someone I was upset with a while back...I don't know if I wish to never speak again or to go all out on them...

So, yes. I've been through a lot. Things are changing, and I see less of all my friends. I don't want to lose them...I basically rebuilt myself by being able to talk with them.

I'm getting close to being an adult, and the real world is coming fast. Do I take it head on, or move out of the way and grab it from behind? I'll find out when the time comes.

I'll try to be here more often, but don't expect to see me too much. I hope to talk to you all soon!