D8 I'm not one of them right?

No it's not you.

Now I feel foolish for waking up in the middle of the night, pounding this journal out, posting, and falling back asleep.

thats because dragons are meh

I feel the same way

I feel myself getting intimidated by people, so I work harder to force myself to keep messaging and talking to them, but I don't know... Sometimes I just feel like I suck.

Hedgehog's dilemma. Well referenced and demonstrated during the story arc of Neon Genesis Evangelion, but also is a real condition. You can't get close to anyone for fear of getting hurt, and nobody can get close to you because they get hurt by your injurious exterior.

So you must either live out life alone for the rest of your life... or how is it exactly that hedgehogs find a mate and reproduce?

The answer is exactly how you must approach friendship and courting. Patience, care, and tenacity.

But...

I LUB YOO!