This was my first actual Christmas celebration for me in three years (always work) So I got to see my Brother n his new wife, n spend time with family and preparing Dinner. We always make meat fruit stuffed turkey. And so We did, with a Turkey my brother had brought months ago, and had been frozen. After little talk n some gift shopping we sat to eat. The turkey was bad, IT was cold inside and smelled like old chiken ready to rot. So the main dish went to the dogs who didn't eat it either. We prepared a few other stuff n had those but we were upset.

Without much more celebration and.....not a single hug my brother left and we got ready to rest. The neighbor decided to play the annoying mother fucker the entire night and they were noisy, Woke me up a few times, cuz they were braking what must have been 20 piñatas.

Morning came, My sis and I were off to the store to buy dog food, n goods. When We came back my brother was home in my room. He had come too bring the kids today and give em some Luchadores. (pretty cool ones). I went up to greet him and was talking to dad in TX while browsing for shit on my broken down laptop. I could not even give my dad a nice Feliz Navidad, cuz my smart brother could not find the dam volume. I finished and took the phone to my sis, an when I came back he had found a video Entitled "Real decapitation Live" ... I tuned and asked him why must he always search for this shit, and random crap.

I don't even remembrer what he told me. I was eating som choolate candy and doing stuff next to my bed ignoring the screen, When I heard a chainsaw, I turned n went c'mon this shit ain't real just some random trash video. (and I really wish it had been one) There were two men on their butts tighten of hands (from som Mexican cartel) and the guy with the chainsaw proceed to cut the head of one of them, after a lot of gore, blood, and my candy making its way back up my throat. His head fell. Then another guy went on and stared cutting the other man on the ground with a knife. This went on for minutes and the agonizing man could simply not die. I was glued to the ground and swallowed back down the candy. I wanted to puck bout could not. I said something to my brother about why was he amused watching people being executed. He gave me a lame meaningless answer as I exited the room,and headed for the window for air, I could not process what I had just seen.

I when back to him very upset and asked him if he was done, and he just told me not yet. I went Furious. Mad as Have not in years, I slammed to door went down stairs, unplug the wireless disconnected every single cable and hid the shit. I was crazy mad. I was staring to shake and went back to my room for my cigars, and he complained bout my doings. I cursed him and began arguing, shaking, half thinking, half doing things, I sat outside on the side walk and killed my cigar. I wanted to puke, cry, scream, run, curl n beat him up at the same time. I took off walking trying to keep my sanity, Bought a small coke and walked uphill as fast as I could, I got to a church, sat there, and smoked. I sat there for a good while until what ever got on me went down. I came back home with a mild stomach ache, and the kids were already there. I went on and left him with them. They didn't exist to me right there I was not in the mood for anything, the afternoon went slow, Socialized little and made clear I was (am) very upset with him. They left late and I still feel like shit and can't even sleep now.

What the hell happened to me. was that a nervous crisis?