I'm sorry to hear that.

yeah. so it goes.

That sucks man.

for serious :<
at least the catfish will feed some woodland creatures i guess.

well, being a stranger myself who has no knowledge of who you are or who youve known and what youve been through, although it may be entirely possible that he was just testing you at the same time suicidal urges have a way of peaking, i guess. like just when you feel that life is horribly unbearable and you can't take it anymore, the survival instinct kicks in and is like "yo, slow your roll". speaking as someone who used to struggle with suicidal impulses and ideation, the urge to tell someone is familiar, as is the urge to tell someone who you feel can't actually step in and change your path. similarly, i can speak from past experience that once a person you thought couldnt interfere has proven you wrong you just kind of dissolve into an embarassed puddle. it was great of you to step in and help and speaks very highly of your character, dont get me wrong, just at least for me the experience of having your life saved when you were its greatest danger was always really embarassing.

its possible he was just fucking with you and you absolutely have the information that would cue you in to such a thing, but its also a weird position to be in for everyone and if hes behaving strangely or suspiciously he may just be attempting to handle the emotional fallout of what he wanted to do vs what happened, as well as all sorts of other things. either way, regardless of his motives, it was still a good thing you did for him and im sorry the consequences impacted you the way they did. still, its good to have people out there who care so sincerely for strangers :)

that's true i suppose, but he has an online boyfriend. he chose to ignore real-time chat with him and instead send me an e-mail that began all normal (sorry but i have to cancel my commission, the post office lost the money) and then goes into a suicide note. it was just all very weird and feels in retrospect like he laid it out in a way he knew would get my attention and then entrap me in the situation.

he only "stopped" when i began to tweet about police involvement...which also reaffirms perhaps it was to mess with me? suddenly he was willing to talk and respond to my emails with things other than vague "you're not helping" and "the gun is in my hand" phrasings.

i think he might have thought he was untrackable, in spite of his IP being logged into the MUD...or maybe didn't know his IP even logged in the MUD. either way it wasn't until it was clear i had some idea of where he was and there was a tangible chance of police involvement that he backed down. which feels very wrong to me.

i don't regret taking the actions i did, i just regret that now it feels i was taken for a ride.

nah, totally, you have every right to feel slighted and concerned about his motives given what his actions put you through. its a fucked up thing to do to someone, no doubt. i definitely dont have enough information to say for sure he wasn't manipulating you and your judgment on the situation is obviously more valid given your involvement. either way though, im sorry about what happened but i do admire your drive to help people in need, even if it turns out they may not have had the need they said they did. its still really cool of you to do, and i appreciate what you did regardless. cheers :)

"Losing faith in humanity. One asshole at a time."

Bunners

i already rambled at draggy, but i'd never lose faith in the species. just in individuals.

but you above all others know i had a slight suspicion of this all going in. it's just one of those things you hope you're not right on, even as evidence mounts.

:(( I'm so sorry clock. It's a shame, poor catfish.. However I still think you did the right thing. That's such a weird and rare situation to be in that if he was being serious it's important to do anything you can to prevent it. Suicide should never be taken lightly, even if it is just to get attention.

i know just ff
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a thousand ffffs lisa :<

:((
id punch everything ever. im sorrry

^ What Grendelair said.

See also: "The ugly side of humanity rears its ass again."

only individuals, never the species as a whole.
remember we're the same species that brought about great peaceniks like ghandi, buddha, martain luther king and great thinkers like newton, galileo, da vinci, einstein...

dickery is an evolutionary throwback. i choose to shake my head at the individual. never the species.

You do put forward a real interesting point on that.

i believe that if we can put aside our dickery we can explore space together, forever.

it's a very humanist view i guess you'd call it?

Sounds about right to me. Besides, we need to find those nikitaks somehow!

totally! they're out there waiting for people to comment on their fluffyness!

*Goes Draggytak and does a floof-dance!*

Suicide is vulgar selfish mindfuck even it isn't some stunt. That guy should have to spend a weekend with the pain monster.

As, for the cat fish.....I dunno fish fry?

i put the catfish in the woods out back. hopefully it'll feed some animal this winter. a fox, a vole, or the murder of crows who hang about town.

i don't wish the guy physical harm but i am really, really disappointed. he was flippant enough to make jokes about the dead catfish this morning as well, which to me is just further reaffirmation that he was messing with me...

If he pulls this again, can I yell "Jump!"?

Bunners

If the crows find it first, the catfish will be gone within 48 hours.

As a corvidaephile, it is my belief that feeding crows and ravens is Good Karma.

I'm sorry you had to go through all that. I've found myself trying to play savior to people in a bad way, and it does end up making you feel used and foolish. But I figure it's better to play the fool occassionally rather than uninstall your Compassion Application.

My take on this guy: he might have bi-polar disorder. Perhaps he was 'down' last night, and 'up' this morning.

Or he could be just what he appears to be: a sadistic narcissist who enjoys attention.

I'm sorry to hear about that. If it makes you feel any better you did handle the derpy thing well and quite frankly you shouldn't be randomely thrust another lfie to care for when the person who cared for it before couldn't be bothered. And while I don't want to think that Derpy did this just to get attention, if he does it again you should just call the cops on him again like you managed to do last time. Don't announce it publicly, just call the cops. Eventually he will stop... hopefully.

yeah...that's kind of the plan..

Well... uh... good job! I do hope he doesn't do this again though.

>was unable to comment to the last one about this but still read it< a part of me hope it wasnt an act....but then the other makes me feel bad for it..
its a really a horrible thing to deal with ether way but at lest you have the heart to help those you dont know too well, thats an incredible part of a person and not enough of us have! <3

and im really sorry about the catfish :C

me too :< it's really horribly windy tonight, so hopefully some poor wild creature caught out in the cold finds him, and takes him under our barn to eat him...at least then i'd feel okay about what happened, cause i'd know some other animal lived for his death :\

ether im to tired or to stupid but...are you talking about the wee catfish orr......? on an unrelated note thats how i would want to go! eaten by loved ones (they are mostly animals) :3
and yes, i hope hes still able to help out other animals <3

the catfish :B he wasn't so wee... he'd make a pretty good meal for a predator or scavenger.

thought so but still had to ask XD
aww i hope some one hungry finds him ^^

That sucks all around, so very much.

You still did right to get worried and alert no matter what anyone might think. You proved you still care enough to at least tell others something and get mad enough to care. Even though I know about nothing that makes you, you. I do know this. You've a good heart and that counts so very much. Thank you.

i appriciate the sentiment.

i got an email from them not long ago detailing what happened...it seems like what pushed them was that they lost their job. which is legitimately a harsh blow. but suicide is never ana ppropriate solution...

Suicide is for many the only solution they see in a desperate situation. It still remains a permanent answer to a temporary problem. I'm sure at some point in time everyone has had the brief flirt with the idea. Some explore it more in-depth and actually consider it from angles that are not their own. This would sometimes come across as attention seeking to many. Others would see it as a horrible joke/game. It's not here or there truly though.

I don't know all the answers because if I did, then I'd be richer and certainly every web comic I'd read would be amply supplied with donations. :)

I wish you well and safe tidings for the rest of this year and all through the next, then forever more afterward.

Mad too. If it was a attention seeking joke. Because that fish didn't wanna die, I'm sure. :C... Ugh *squish*.

mewwww :c