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14 years ago
Howdy Furs and furrettes! ;3
Project: 100 Ladies
Progress: 50%
GOAL : Reach 50 Success
GOAL : Reach 55 Success
GOAL : Reach 75
Project: 100 Ladies
Progress: 50%
GOAL : Reach 50 Success
GOAL : Reach 55 Success
GOAL : Reach 75
How are you? : Not too great...I've had better days though.
What on your mind : The new year and how it'll be no different from last year.
Any New Year Resolutions?: Just 4 , 1 is to go to the gym more often. I've seem to grown a few pant sizes...-sigh- then second is a tad personal but it involves finding someone. The third , to find a job or some means of establishing some minute(my newt) cash flow. 4 Obtain my license.
Any Pains?: My eyes are red, my neck and shoulders stiff as hell, and I could be getting sick maybe or maybe its just in my head.
Did you do anything new in 2011?: Well no and yes. No cuz all I did was home n go to school. Not entirely exciting... however my friends have started visiting more often ever since I started my Video production class. Which would be the yes part, I made short little films, learned how to use 3d modelling program, and every now and then went to the gym when I wasn't making films.
What do you hate about yourself?: A long list of things really but I will name the top few or rather the ones that for stick out. My jealous nature. I hate that, I hate that when I look at something or someone and see something that I would like to have or be able to do and grow jealous. Mind you I keep the terrible feeling caused by jealousy at bay so I don;t do something irrational. Another thing I hate my possessive nature. This doesn't happen often with things. Seeing as I'm only semi materialistic seeing as there are only a few things in my life that I would say " MINE " to. However, with people particularly female it occurs most often. There are times where I am inamored by a woman and although I attempt to seek a relationship nothing occurs but subconsciously I assume they're just for me until bang someone is cut and pasted into the picture. At which point I can be rather coniving and making snide and snarky remarks. Not that I mean to..... I just do it naturally. I lose more friends, particulary women, this way. Sigh what else... my procrastination. ah yes. I hate this so much . I make plans , well thought out ones, but something interrupts it whether it be my passive nature ( which I also hate) where I avoid take charge of a situation, or the fact I get easily distracted by other things. Sigh I hate that, and although I work alot quicker under pressure by deadlines, due dates , etc etc it puts alot of stress on my psychy. How I stay sane I don't even know anymore. My luck is something I also hate. I'm not unlucky although in certain spectrums of my life I am. Socially I'm awkward and my luck in this field ebbs either for good or worse . Usually worse. In the school work field .... I get so worried that I might fail a course but lo n behold I pass with barely any effort on my part. Which is good, but I wish I was more confident that I wouldn't worry about it every waking hour. As I tell my friends , lady luck loves me when it comes to games of chance. Cards, dice, , whatever I seem to win out but when ever it comes to a girl my luck just dips. I tell my friends lady luck loves me and would rather not share me with another woman. e.e I know sounds rather egotistic of me. Last thing I hate is the zest of life , pessimism
Do you like anything about yourself: A few things, my drive. I dunno , when I get going, I go and keep going but when drive gets bogged down by external things well . The weight is heavy , but a burden I must bear.
What have people called you?: Goof, there are times where I am "goofy" . Like sing songs about burritos in the shower, act out fighting scenes in my room for ha's ha's, say random things amidst a conversation. ( Could be a mild case of tourrettes, cuz at times I can't help myself but say pineapple, A fruit I dislike as itself but tastes good if prepared in a certain way. I've been called cute, although I don't see it some girls have called me this . I've been called handsome rarely but again I dun see it. I'm not appealing to anyone let alone myself. Annoying, this I can see. I have a habit of annoying people just by being present. I dunno , maybe I emit some wave, or aura that just pisses people off. Retarded, hard to believe really. Computer-wise I can type well and give you something coherent to read. Meet me in person and I'll likely be silent , say something stupid, or better a perverted joke/innuendo, maybe even squeeze in a " Thats what she said " Which leads to another thing I've been called. " Pervert " Can't blame people who only look as deep as the skin. I may say these dirty jokes aloud and I'll admit I'm a pervert, but atleast I'm an honest pervert, not just some guy trying to get in your pants, or a rapist. I've been called a stalker, but again thats due to my possessive nature. People assune just because you know alot about a person that you are stalker. What am I take for ? Some delinquent who hides in some bushes looking in to a girl's room via binocculars or listening through a wall via hearing apparatti? Nay I say, nay. I merely listen to whatever I'm told, and if it is a person I care about I try my best to retain the information they tell me. ( doesn't always help, my memory isn't what its use to be ) I've been called a recluse or a NEET. Just cuz I rarely go out. If I go out its cuz someone invited me, or I need something . Other then that I remain confined by 4 walls, a ceiling, and a floor.I can't really help that. I'm the kind of person that needs constant stimuli or I get bored and irritible. Hence I shy away from parties.
Things you believe in ? : I believe in alot of things. Things that would make people argue. I believe in a god, but not in religion. I believe if you are morally good then its ok. Holidays n Birthdays, I don't have a problem with them. I don't mind celebrating them just that I don't believe it any different from a normal day. The day of your birth has no meaning since you are constantly getting older and degrading day by day. Its real significance however is just a marker so you know how long you've been alive for important documents. I do believe in love but not fairytale love, or romantic love anything. But I believe in what love really is. A word without a definition but only defined by the individual. Different people have different definitions, and although I'm merely doing what I've said "defining love " for me that is the truth. I believe that politics sucks, cuz no matter who you vote for you are screwed. Some people don't get that running a nation is hard, that you have to do something bad for the long run to get something good in the end. ( Those that do understand thumbs up tp you ). but again it sux. I believe that if you want it bad enough that you can do it, just at your own pace.
Your race ?: I'm Hispanic on ther surface, but in depth I'm an american of puerto rican and dominican decent. There could also be possibilities that I'm french , african, possibly even irish or italian but I haven't looked that far into my ancestors.
Anything else to say ? : No not really . I always have that problem with people specfically those with careers where the objective is to talk to me. Doctors: Have any questions? Therapist: How has it been since our last session? etc etc My natural response to ththose questions respectively is no and, I don't remember that far back well. I don't have questions since I understand you and I will follow your direction as long as it leads to me having good health or feeling better. You expect me to remember three weeks ago our last session? My mind is like a fucking computer that constantly defrags itself and deletes unecessary information. Which in this case since my life barely changes all days blend into each other and I can't really remember because If I try it'll likely be something just that day or something much further back that isn't even relevant >.<. I use to remember my old phone number , now that I have a new phone that displays its number in an easily located area on it I have noo need to remember either number r_r. I might as well start carrying a book of numbers cuz I forget to charge my phone and yeah dun wanna be caught near a payphone trying to remember someone's number. Sometimes ya just can't be traditional media since it lasts as long as you take care of it where as digital media all ya have to do is accidentally put your flash drive in the pocket with a magnet and there goes all your work. Not wiped but now your data is corrupted and you can't access the drive without formatting it so yeah deleted r.r ..... I mean seriosuly both digital and traditional are valuable media sources. One is reliable as it can store info in so small that you don't have to worry bout the clutter of papers and such. Eh I'm rambling...well done. Doubt anyone will try this me me but it something there for people who want to get to know me or just want to hear the ramblings of some 22 year old .
What on your mind : The new year and how it'll be no different from last year.
Any New Year Resolutions?: Just 4 , 1 is to go to the gym more often. I've seem to grown a few pant sizes...-sigh- then second is a tad personal but it involves finding someone. The third , to find a job or some means of establishing some minute(my newt) cash flow. 4 Obtain my license.
Any Pains?: My eyes are red, my neck and shoulders stiff as hell, and I could be getting sick maybe or maybe its just in my head.
Did you do anything new in 2011?: Well no and yes. No cuz all I did was home n go to school. Not entirely exciting... however my friends have started visiting more often ever since I started my Video production class. Which would be the yes part, I made short little films, learned how to use 3d modelling program, and every now and then went to the gym when I wasn't making films.
What do you hate about yourself?: A long list of things really but I will name the top few or rather the ones that for stick out. My jealous nature. I hate that, I hate that when I look at something or someone and see something that I would like to have or be able to do and grow jealous. Mind you I keep the terrible feeling caused by jealousy at bay so I don;t do something irrational. Another thing I hate my possessive nature. This doesn't happen often with things. Seeing as I'm only semi materialistic seeing as there are only a few things in my life that I would say " MINE " to. However, with people particularly female it occurs most often. There are times where I am inamored by a woman and although I attempt to seek a relationship nothing occurs but subconsciously I assume they're just for me until bang someone is cut and pasted into the picture. At which point I can be rather coniving and making snide and snarky remarks. Not that I mean to..... I just do it naturally. I lose more friends, particulary women, this way. Sigh what else... my procrastination. ah yes. I hate this so much . I make plans , well thought out ones, but something interrupts it whether it be my passive nature ( which I also hate) where I avoid take charge of a situation, or the fact I get easily distracted by other things. Sigh I hate that, and although I work alot quicker under pressure by deadlines, due dates , etc etc it puts alot of stress on my psychy. How I stay sane I don't even know anymore. My luck is something I also hate. I'm not unlucky although in certain spectrums of my life I am. Socially I'm awkward and my luck in this field ebbs either for good or worse . Usually worse. In the school work field .... I get so worried that I might fail a course but lo n behold I pass with barely any effort on my part. Which is good, but I wish I was more confident that I wouldn't worry about it every waking hour. As I tell my friends , lady luck loves me when it comes to games of chance. Cards, dice, , whatever I seem to win out but when ever it comes to a girl my luck just dips. I tell my friends lady luck loves me and would rather not share me with another woman. e.e I know sounds rather egotistic of me. Last thing I hate is the zest of life , pessimism
Do you like anything about yourself: A few things, my drive. I dunno , when I get going, I go and keep going but when drive gets bogged down by external things well . The weight is heavy , but a burden I must bear.
What have people called you?: Goof, there are times where I am "goofy" . Like sing songs about burritos in the shower, act out fighting scenes in my room for ha's ha's, say random things amidst a conversation. ( Could be a mild case of tourrettes, cuz at times I can't help myself but say pineapple, A fruit I dislike as itself but tastes good if prepared in a certain way. I've been called cute, although I don't see it some girls have called me this . I've been called handsome rarely but again I dun see it. I'm not appealing to anyone let alone myself. Annoying, this I can see. I have a habit of annoying people just by being present. I dunno , maybe I emit some wave, or aura that just pisses people off. Retarded, hard to believe really. Computer-wise I can type well and give you something coherent to read. Meet me in person and I'll likely be silent , say something stupid, or better a perverted joke/innuendo, maybe even squeeze in a " Thats what she said " Which leads to another thing I've been called. " Pervert " Can't blame people who only look as deep as the skin. I may say these dirty jokes aloud and I'll admit I'm a pervert, but atleast I'm an honest pervert, not just some guy trying to get in your pants, or a rapist. I've been called a stalker, but again thats due to my possessive nature. People assune just because you know alot about a person that you are stalker. What am I take for ? Some delinquent who hides in some bushes looking in to a girl's room via binocculars or listening through a wall via hearing apparatti? Nay I say, nay. I merely listen to whatever I'm told, and if it is a person I care about I try my best to retain the information they tell me. ( doesn't always help, my memory isn't what its use to be ) I've been called a recluse or a NEET. Just cuz I rarely go out. If I go out its cuz someone invited me, or I need something . Other then that I remain confined by 4 walls, a ceiling, and a floor.I can't really help that. I'm the kind of person that needs constant stimuli or I get bored and irritible. Hence I shy away from parties.
Things you believe in ? : I believe in alot of things. Things that would make people argue. I believe in a god, but not in religion. I believe if you are morally good then its ok. Holidays n Birthdays, I don't have a problem with them. I don't mind celebrating them just that I don't believe it any different from a normal day. The day of your birth has no meaning since you are constantly getting older and degrading day by day. Its real significance however is just a marker so you know how long you've been alive for important documents. I do believe in love but not fairytale love, or romantic love anything. But I believe in what love really is. A word without a definition but only defined by the individual. Different people have different definitions, and although I'm merely doing what I've said "defining love " for me that is the truth. I believe that politics sucks, cuz no matter who you vote for you are screwed. Some people don't get that running a nation is hard, that you have to do something bad for the long run to get something good in the end. ( Those that do understand thumbs up tp you ). but again it sux. I believe that if you want it bad enough that you can do it, just at your own pace.
Your race ?: I'm Hispanic on ther surface, but in depth I'm an american of puerto rican and dominican decent. There could also be possibilities that I'm french , african, possibly even irish or italian but I haven't looked that far into my ancestors.
Anything else to say ? : No not really . I always have that problem with people specfically those with careers where the objective is to talk to me. Doctors: Have any questions? Therapist: How has it been since our last session? etc etc My natural response to ththose questions respectively is no and, I don't remember that far back well. I don't have questions since I understand you and I will follow your direction as long as it leads to me having good health or feeling better. You expect me to remember three weeks ago our last session? My mind is like a fucking computer that constantly defrags itself and deletes unecessary information. Which in this case since my life barely changes all days blend into each other and I can't really remember because If I try it'll likely be something just that day or something much further back that isn't even relevant >.<. I use to remember my old phone number , now that I have a new phone that displays its number in an easily located area on it I have noo need to remember either number r_r. I might as well start carrying a book of numbers cuz I forget to charge my phone and yeah dun wanna be caught near a payphone trying to remember someone's number. Sometimes ya just can't be traditional media since it lasts as long as you take care of it where as digital media all ya have to do is accidentally put your flash drive in the pocket with a magnet and there goes all your work. Not wiped but now your data is corrupted and you can't access the drive without formatting it so yeah deleted r.r ..... I mean seriosuly both digital and traditional are valuable media sources. One is reliable as it can store info in so small that you don't have to worry bout the clutter of papers and such. Eh I'm rambling...well done. Doubt anyone will try this me me but it something there for people who want to get to know me or just want to hear the ramblings of some 22 year old .
