I wrote a journal earlier today that a few people saw..and it was mean..and it was truthful. i was pissed. i found out my ex threatened to burn my stuff that i sent him. the stuff that meant the world to me. old pics i drew and memorabilia...and i made a threat that i meant very much so..and then i realized something. nothing would come of hurting him. revenge never made me feel better. i feel good when others feel good. when others feel bad i feel horrible..so i made a new decision. i told him he can burn it. i hope he does..because then i am free. it hurts a little but you know what, so what. life hurts, life sucks, and It will always suck and hurt. but i got better things to do then dwell on it. alot of things to do. i am going to be alone for awhile and i am going to use that time too make my life better and make ME better. and i am doing this for me and only me. so...that is my answer. i lose some shit and gain some self respect. good trade i would say.

and as far as he is concerned. i never had a relationship. i just had some delusion that i am free of now. and seeing life thru unclouded eyes, i got alot of work ahead of me.