Oh my god I've had it with this stupid thing. I get 5 straight hours of class after class after class every Monday Wednesday and Friday, it's only my first day of class and I have a ton of homework that I can't even do because my stupid loan money hasn't been transferred yet so I don't have the money to buy any of the books that go with the classes, and half the stuff we talked about doesn't even make any sense! I fail at any attempts to make friends because the stupid college moved me out of my room with the other freshman before the year started and stuck me on the other side of campus with a bunch of seniors. I got put with all the worst professors in the place even though I made sure to request the ones I wanted, and now all this stress is building up with all the other crap going on in my life to make the worst possible day I could ever have! Why does everything I set out to do always end up in a freaking failure, or just make my life that much harder to live through? Everything that's happened to me, everything that I've had to do, is just another depressing story to tell. Now add college to that list because I don't know how much more of this I can take. Leaving all my friends behind so I can go bankrupt, take 4 more years of school, which I just got out of, live alone, and waste my life doing homework and playing video games, so that I can design a fucking spaceship. That sound like the good old college years to you? NO? BECAUSE IT SUCKS!! I don't care if I'm overreacting, I don't care if I'm being a pessimist, because I just want to SCREAM at the world for sending my life into this hellhole. This doesn't even begin to cover the stupid shit I have to deal with every day, the thoughts that go through my head and the devil in me that I have to keep locked up. FML I want to die. Please, somebody shoot me. I have reached my breaking point and beyond so will somebody just end it! The worst part is, this post probably won't even submit when I'm done because the internet doesn't work worth shit! KILL ME!

If you just read that whole thing, and take the time to comment, you're one of my new best friends. Or you're stalking me. Or you just can't follow directions. If it's the second option, go away. If not, then thank you. I may not say it to you directly, but thank you....wow that's long.