Am I self obsessed? Is that normal to some extent? I feel a bit... empty. I know many furs, yet I can hardly hold a normal conversation, or I'm too quiet to enter a conversation. I'm barely interesting, so I'm rarely approached into a conversation, as hell it only goes as deep as 'Hi, so what you been doing? ... Oh nothing much."
I usually feel the extra wheel in a group being so quiet and uninformative. I might as well not be around, I'm basically just empty space listening in on facts within conversations between people actually doing stuff and with interesting life experience. I have neither... nothing going for me, no real interesting life experiences in the last 5 years... father passed 3 years ago... his ashes only soon to be buried in the first weekend of February.
I'm 20, soon to be 21 in late May, and I feel insignificant, feeling as if I might be depressive, am I seeking attention? I might...
I have no ideas for that what I want for my future work wise, the things that I do want are not important in the long run. My future looks dull, nothing special. I'm trying my best currently to at least get a job, just so I can be a bit better off so I can get the things I want, and somehow hoping the responsibly of a job will help me be a better people. Someone that is less timid, someone that is less lazy, someone that can actually hold a conversation and keep it going.