I'm bored, and overdue for a new journal. So here's one that may or not be TMI! :D

So ya. I'd been introduced into various aspects of bondage and more by assorted friends and sometimes just random people I met while following others round.  noblewolf and  proxywolf were probably some of the first randomly enough at a con. I think it might have been the first AC I went to actually. But then it turns out that so many of my close/long time friends were into various aspects of it too.


I blame the lot of you (You all know who you are) for all of this! Oh sweet sweet delicious torturous blame!

That said I don't generally get chances to try things out, and at least past chances were passed up in part because honestly it's not the sort of thing I'm prone to trust people I don't know well with. I've come to relax that view point a touch but in the end it just takes a certain level of trust I don't generally bestow upon people I don't know. In the end I'm still very much figuring out what I like/dont like and so many of my friends have clearly been horrible influences sending me on the path to hell with me merrily and willingly skipping along the whole way*.  dershep  zets  nighthawk and  drakis37 have probably been the worst influences over time to be honest. But what wonderfully bad influences they have made in my life. There's many others as well but they've definitely been the main instigators. God help me for I know this is just one big deep pit I'm pretty much starting to fall into and there's possibly going to be a long way to go before I hit bottom.. unless I wind up on top. Then I might be hitting some one's bottom bit sooner than later in oh so many possible ways** ^.^. Beyond that I'm just into things that look 'cool' though I still maintain, despite claims to the contrary by some of my friends that I don't have an outright gear fetish. I mean, hell I like powersuits, robots, cyberpunk shit like that. But I don't get turned on by it so I don't think at least that it counts as a kink, feel free to weigh in on the matter+.

I suppose it's slowly getting into stuff like this that has finally started making me miss not really having some one close relationship wise. I've got lots of good, highly corrupting friends though so I'm at least not completely lonely. Ah well, it'll be interesting to see what 2012 brings assuming it's not just more of the same endless tedium of life.

In totally unrelated news I seriously need to start hitting the gym again and finish getting my ass in the army, seriously started thinking bout looking at Reg Force instead of Reserves and at this point I can honestly say it's just my physical fitness level stopping me as well as personal motivation. I suppose in many ways I just fear to take a leap of faith where I myself am concerned but I've come a hell of a long way especially these past four years. As long as I don't stop I might actually wind up with a decent paying job and god knows what will happen then!++.



*As a feline I disavow any actual knowledge of evil, naughtiness or other things that could possibly make me guilty and blame any and all wrong doing on the dogs. Also by willing I mean I was horribly mislead and uh... totally.. like.. not willing! Ya.. Ya that's it!

**I make joke. Laugh or I'll get in my powersuit and kill you then blame it all on your dog.***

***If you don't have a dog, I'll buy you one, then kill you, then blame it on your new dog.

+I reserve the right to continue to live in denial, not that I am.

++Other than dumping some serious cash into a few other kinks like E-stim ^.^. Oh shit, wait.. see *