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14 years ago
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So.. as you can see, I haven't done anything on here within the past 4 months. Well, I haven't been
drawing really AT ALL, so no one is missing any art of mine. :( A lot of crap has been going on since
last year after summer of 2011. Mind you, nothing productive in my case. I've switched psychiatrists
just the other week, and I'm working on weaning off of Adderall (which I should have never been
prescribed in the first place). I think it's better for everyone, especially me and my physical/mental
health. I've been driving everyone insane that I personally know. Another bad thing I had gotten
into is smoking 'herbal incense'. I don't know how many of you know what that is, but it's basically
legal marijuana. It's sold in some smoke shops and gas stations (locally at least). But the 'bad' thing
about it, is it's really harmful and has caused seizures in some people. I mean, it's just chemicals
sprayed onto plant matter, and then you smoke it to get high. The reason why it's legal, is because
they sell it in little bags with labels like, "Not for human consumption" or "DO NOT SMOKE". The
bags contain like 1-3 grams and it usually has a weird name and a drawing or graphic image/design
on the package. Well, if you haven't heard of this stuff and have NEVER tried it, don't. It's addictive
and the withdrawal symptoms consist of extreme anxiety and depression. I'm talking about like if
you smoke it for a few days at a time and stop, the next day you don't smoke.. you feel on edge.
I'm pretty sure it's why I've felt like complete shit everyday for the past month.
BUT... good news is, I've stopped smoking that crap. I'm tired of reading the horror stories
about it. I'm tired of relying on it to feel 'content'. I'm tired of my parents smelling it on me
every time I came home and then hearing them bitch at me for an hour, about 'what happened
to me' and, "You used to hate that kind of stuff! You never wanted to touch it." My parents HATE
that I smoke it (or that I used to smoke it rather). It's also nasty tasting a lot of the time and
you develop a tolerance to it very quickly. I used to feel a lot better without it, so yeah.
I'll update some more on another journal in a bit, about my art status and everything.. just
wanted to tell everyone about WHAT is effecting my life currently. Oh, and I'll also write about
my boyfriend's apartment and our awesome new roommate.
EDIT: Oh.. not sure what happened to the text format of this journal, sorry if it's annoying to read. :(
drawing really AT ALL, so no one is missing any art of mine. :( A lot of crap has been going on since
last year after summer of 2011. Mind you, nothing productive in my case. I've switched psychiatrists
just the other week, and I'm working on weaning off of Adderall (which I should have never been
prescribed in the first place). I think it's better for everyone, especially me and my physical/mental
health. I've been driving everyone insane that I personally know. Another bad thing I had gotten
into is smoking 'herbal incense'. I don't know how many of you know what that is, but it's basically
legal marijuana. It's sold in some smoke shops and gas stations (locally at least). But the 'bad' thing
about it, is it's really harmful and has caused seizures in some people. I mean, it's just chemicals
sprayed onto plant matter, and then you smoke it to get high. The reason why it's legal, is because
they sell it in little bags with labels like, "Not for human consumption" or "DO NOT SMOKE". The
bags contain like 1-3 grams and it usually has a weird name and a drawing or graphic image/design
on the package. Well, if you haven't heard of this stuff and have NEVER tried it, don't. It's addictive
and the withdrawal symptoms consist of extreme anxiety and depression. I'm talking about like if
you smoke it for a few days at a time and stop, the next day you don't smoke.. you feel on edge.
I'm pretty sure it's why I've felt like complete shit everyday for the past month.
BUT... good news is, I've stopped smoking that crap. I'm tired of reading the horror stories
about it. I'm tired of relying on it to feel 'content'. I'm tired of my parents smelling it on me
every time I came home and then hearing them bitch at me for an hour, about 'what happened
to me' and, "You used to hate that kind of stuff! You never wanted to touch it." My parents HATE
that I smoke it (or that I used to smoke it rather). It's also nasty tasting a lot of the time and
you develop a tolerance to it very quickly. I used to feel a lot better without it, so yeah.
I'll update some more on another journal in a bit, about my art status and everything.. just
wanted to tell everyone about WHAT is effecting my life currently. Oh, and I'll also write about
my boyfriend's apartment and our awesome new roommate.
EDIT: Oh.. not sure what happened to the text format of this journal, sorry if it's annoying to read. :(
We've missed you here!
*hug*
Just keep pushing forwards, and things will improve before you know it! :)