I have to say it's different floating through life with out any real direction or real reason. I have been focusing on improving anything in my life but as hard as I try nothing seems to really change or get better. Money is the only thing that moves anything in this sad little life and getting a job isn't happening, no matter what I do. *screams* It is also hard to come to come to terms with the fact that I was thrown away because of money and someone loved it more then me. '
*sigh* I'm never going to get over this so I'm just going to have to become something more.