CONFESSIONS :O
13 years ago
Confession 1: Your biggest fear.
- Being alone. I joke about "dying alone" a lot, but I have an extreme phobia of driving off those close to me and ending up completely isolated. I've been told a lot of bad things about myself that I take to heart, and I... just keep thinking that one day others will figure it out and desert me.
Confession 2: Worst Nightmare.
- I once had a nasty dream where my mom and I ended up in a car wreck that killed us. The vehicle flipped and I woke up just after the roof crushed inward and my neck broke.
Confession 3: Something you wish you could forget.
- See above where I said I've been told a lot of bad things? THAT. I have this weird inability to allow myself to forget things, and even if I know REALISTICALLY that they were said in the heat of the moment or even if I HAVE forgiven the people who said them, I apparently have a near-photographic memory of every nasty thing that has been said to me.
Confession 4: Best dream.
- I have no idea what actually happened in the dream, but I remember it was from last night. I had to share a bed with untitledwendigo at our stepmom's house, and I actually woke her up to excitedly explain it to her. I seriously don't remember what happened except that it made me insanely happy. I have a vague recollection of telling her that some guy was standing in a river saying that the river was his father now, because it had killed his biological dad. Apparently, being a parent is like being the Highlander.
Confession 5: Favorite memory.
- I have plenty and most of them involve andren and mooshay. In particular, last summer, we all went to Washington D.C. and acted like screaming geeks at the Smithsonian Zoo. Or, uh... this past New Year's Eve was fun. OR HALLOWEEN ANY TIME THEY SHOW UP. OR BUYING PEZ DISPENSERS FOR MY CHRISTMAS TREE BECAUSE ALL THE ORNAMENTS WERE SOLD OUT.
Confession 6: Worst experience.
- The most I'm willing to say is that I now have a phobia of answering phones. If you ever get a weird number on your caller ID, it isn't always a survey and it isn't always a telemarketer.
Confession 7: Biggest pet peeve.
- The sound of chewing, crunching, and popping jaws. This isn't exclusively for people around me, either. I get annoyed at my OWN sounds. I sometimes eat freakishly fast just so I don't have to hear it.
Confession 8: Something you're paranoid about.
- Most things? LOL. I am seriously scared about EVERYTHING. I am the Caius Cosades of real life. I am a worrier who will not rest until every fear is answered for, even if it means harassing the piss out of a person just to get closure so I can stop freaking out as bad.
Confession 9: What you thought of your current best friend when you met them.
- IVNAS AND KOFFINGS? I dooooon't know. I was a bit wary of Ivan because I'm wary of most new people. Then, like... a day later it was like, "PFFFT, COO'. WE FRAND? WE FRAND." Katherine was almost an immediate "YES I AM LIKING YOU" because that weird... fear stage was skipped because I already knew so much about her from Ivan.
Confession 10: Your strongest principle/belief.
- Everybody should just be cool to one another. Respect, no matter what. Even if you loathe a person, be civil. Though I've been rather nasty in the past (I was TERRIBLE when I was younger), I am probably the last person to seriously advocate conflict anymore. It seems like wasted energy.
Confession 11: What annoys you the most.
- Extreme apathy and some people's need to one-up others. Extreme apathy doesn't make you look cool; it makes you look like a sociopath. And, to one-uppers? The last thing I need when I am complaining about my day to vent is you responding that you have had the same thing happen, ONLY WORSE. That just makes me feel... terrible about needing to vent.
Confession 12: Something you want to do before you die.
- I... don't know. I don't really plan these things.
Confession 13: Biggest regret.
- I don't know this, either. I tend to not regret much, since usually things work out for me in the end to an extent. Seeing as I've yet to fuck myself over TOO bad...
Confession 14: Hidden talent.
- I am freakishly good at Jet Set Radio Future? I can cook pretty well? Uh... I-I... I dunno? I don't really do much.
Confession 15: Favorite thing about yourself.
- I like my accent. I used to not, but now I love it. I never knew I spoke in a... specific southern accent. Apparently southern Appalachian is in a field all its own. *shrug*
Confession 16: One thing you would change about yourself if you could.
- I would like to lose some weight, very very much so. Not even to LOOK better. Just so my back FEELS better. Granted, I am losing it, so... mission accomplished? No, no. Go away faster, pudge.
Confession 15: Worst habit.
- I tend to take a turn for the depressing for no reason. I complain often, and I sometimes get very enthused and refuse to shut up. I don't make eye contact because I get worried that I'm weirding people out by staring at them, and I am awkward and uncoordinated and have a tendency to break or drop things. I also bite my nails.
Confession 16: Most important person in your life at the moment.
- There's quite a few. I know few, but those few are close, and they are all my driving force... even if I don't see 99% of them very much because my schedule is so crazy.
Confession 19: A skill you wish you had.
- Math. That would be... helpful.
Confession 20: Biggest compliment you've ever received.
- Well, not the biggest, but the freshest. A notoriously harsh drawing professor here told me that I drew one of his settings with "85% accuracy." I then proceeded to ALMOST get an A. Considering how harsh he is and that my last project was a C grade? Fuck yeah!
Confession 21: What you hate most about society.
- Things are so hectic and impersonal. It's... weird.
Confession 22: Something that makes you cry.
- Anything could potentially do it. I cry at the drop of a hat.
Confession 23: Something that makes you laugh.
- Again: ANYTHING could potentially do it. I seriously laugh at even the most ridiculous or unfunny things. My sense of humor is... off.
Confession 24: Most treasured possession.
- I have an Entei pokedoll that Ivan and Katherine got for me. His name is Propane. He goes with me EVERYWHERE. Even to the Smithsonian. On my visits home. Any trip at all. PROPANE GOES.
Confession 25: Something no-one expected you to like.
- I dunno. People usually don't make assumptions about what I like, because I have an eclectic taste. So if I just end up liking something odd, they just kind of nod and go with it.
Confession 26: Strangest hobby.
- I collect Pokemon. Like... particularly Entei. I really like Entei.
Confession 27: Biggest ambition.
- Get. My. Gotdamn. DEGREE.
Confession 28: Something stupid you used to believe in when you were younger.
- I used to believe cobras were mythological creatures. When my mom proved me wrong via the Discovery Channel, I became convinced every snake was SECRETLY a cobra with its hood down. It made my mom's snake-catching escapades all the more impressive. Alternately, I believed every black bug with a black widow, and I once sat for over half an hour on our porch, PETRIFIED to put my foot on the step with the cricket on it.
Confession 29: A random confession.
- Uh... lawnmowers are terrifying but you already knew that because I bring it up a lot? Dudes, I am an open book. What HAVEN'T I told you?
Confession 30: A few words to, honestly, describe yourself.
- Socially awkward geek prone to mood swings. Amazing regardless.
- Being alone. I joke about "dying alone" a lot, but I have an extreme phobia of driving off those close to me and ending up completely isolated. I've been told a lot of bad things about myself that I take to heart, and I... just keep thinking that one day others will figure it out and desert me.
Confession 2: Worst Nightmare.
- I once had a nasty dream where my mom and I ended up in a car wreck that killed us. The vehicle flipped and I woke up just after the roof crushed inward and my neck broke.
Confession 3: Something you wish you could forget.
- See above where I said I've been told a lot of bad things? THAT. I have this weird inability to allow myself to forget things, and even if I know REALISTICALLY that they were said in the heat of the moment or even if I HAVE forgiven the people who said them, I apparently have a near-photographic memory of every nasty thing that has been said to me.
Confession 4: Best dream.
- I have no idea what actually happened in the dream, but I remember it was from last night. I had to share a bed with untitledwendigo at our stepmom's house, and I actually woke her up to excitedly explain it to her. I seriously don't remember what happened except that it made me insanely happy. I have a vague recollection of telling her that some guy was standing in a river saying that the river was his father now, because it had killed his biological dad. Apparently, being a parent is like being the Highlander.
Confession 5: Favorite memory.
- I have plenty and most of them involve andren and mooshay. In particular, last summer, we all went to Washington D.C. and acted like screaming geeks at the Smithsonian Zoo. Or, uh... this past New Year's Eve was fun. OR HALLOWEEN ANY TIME THEY SHOW UP. OR BUYING PEZ DISPENSERS FOR MY CHRISTMAS TREE BECAUSE ALL THE ORNAMENTS WERE SOLD OUT.
Confession 6: Worst experience.
- The most I'm willing to say is that I now have a phobia of answering phones. If you ever get a weird number on your caller ID, it isn't always a survey and it isn't always a telemarketer.
Confession 7: Biggest pet peeve.
- The sound of chewing, crunching, and popping jaws. This isn't exclusively for people around me, either. I get annoyed at my OWN sounds. I sometimes eat freakishly fast just so I don't have to hear it.
Confession 8: Something you're paranoid about.
- Most things? LOL. I am seriously scared about EVERYTHING. I am the Caius Cosades of real life. I am a worrier who will not rest until every fear is answered for, even if it means harassing the piss out of a person just to get closure so I can stop freaking out as bad.
Confession 9: What you thought of your current best friend when you met them.
- IVNAS AND KOFFINGS? I dooooon't know. I was a bit wary of Ivan because I'm wary of most new people. Then, like... a day later it was like, "PFFFT, COO'. WE FRAND? WE FRAND." Katherine was almost an immediate "YES I AM LIKING YOU" because that weird... fear stage was skipped because I already knew so much about her from Ivan.
Confession 10: Your strongest principle/belief.
- Everybody should just be cool to one another. Respect, no matter what. Even if you loathe a person, be civil. Though I've been rather nasty in the past (I was TERRIBLE when I was younger), I am probably the last person to seriously advocate conflict anymore. It seems like wasted energy.
Confession 11: What annoys you the most.
- Extreme apathy and some people's need to one-up others. Extreme apathy doesn't make you look cool; it makes you look like a sociopath. And, to one-uppers? The last thing I need when I am complaining about my day to vent is you responding that you have had the same thing happen, ONLY WORSE. That just makes me feel... terrible about needing to vent.
Confession 12: Something you want to do before you die.
- I... don't know. I don't really plan these things.
Confession 13: Biggest regret.
- I don't know this, either. I tend to not regret much, since usually things work out for me in the end to an extent. Seeing as I've yet to fuck myself over TOO bad...
Confession 14: Hidden talent.
- I am freakishly good at Jet Set Radio Future? I can cook pretty well? Uh... I-I... I dunno? I don't really do much.
Confession 15: Favorite thing about yourself.
- I like my accent. I used to not, but now I love it. I never knew I spoke in a... specific southern accent. Apparently southern Appalachian is in a field all its own. *shrug*
Confession 16: One thing you would change about yourself if you could.
- I would like to lose some weight, very very much so. Not even to LOOK better. Just so my back FEELS better. Granted, I am losing it, so... mission accomplished? No, no. Go away faster, pudge.
Confession 15: Worst habit.
- I tend to take a turn for the depressing for no reason. I complain often, and I sometimes get very enthused and refuse to shut up. I don't make eye contact because I get worried that I'm weirding people out by staring at them, and I am awkward and uncoordinated and have a tendency to break or drop things. I also bite my nails.
Confession 16: Most important person in your life at the moment.
- There's quite a few. I know few, but those few are close, and they are all my driving force... even if I don't see 99% of them very much because my schedule is so crazy.
Confession 19: A skill you wish you had.
- Math. That would be... helpful.
Confession 20: Biggest compliment you've ever received.
- Well, not the biggest, but the freshest. A notoriously harsh drawing professor here told me that I drew one of his settings with "85% accuracy." I then proceeded to ALMOST get an A. Considering how harsh he is and that my last project was a C grade? Fuck yeah!
Confession 21: What you hate most about society.
- Things are so hectic and impersonal. It's... weird.
Confession 22: Something that makes you cry.
- Anything could potentially do it. I cry at the drop of a hat.
Confession 23: Something that makes you laugh.
- Again: ANYTHING could potentially do it. I seriously laugh at even the most ridiculous or unfunny things. My sense of humor is... off.
Confession 24: Most treasured possession.
- I have an Entei pokedoll that Ivan and Katherine got for me. His name is Propane. He goes with me EVERYWHERE. Even to the Smithsonian. On my visits home. Any trip at all. PROPANE GOES.
Confession 25: Something no-one expected you to like.
- I dunno. People usually don't make assumptions about what I like, because I have an eclectic taste. So if I just end up liking something odd, they just kind of nod and go with it.
Confession 26: Strangest hobby.
- I collect Pokemon. Like... particularly Entei. I really like Entei.
Confession 27: Biggest ambition.
- Get. My. Gotdamn. DEGREE.
Confession 28: Something stupid you used to believe in when you were younger.
- I used to believe cobras were mythological creatures. When my mom proved me wrong via the Discovery Channel, I became convinced every snake was SECRETLY a cobra with its hood down. It made my mom's snake-catching escapades all the more impressive. Alternately, I believed every black bug with a black widow, and I once sat for over half an hour on our porch, PETRIFIED to put my foot on the step with the cricket on it.
Confession 29: A random confession.
- Uh... lawnmowers are terrifying but you already knew that because I bring it up a lot? Dudes, I am an open book. What HAVEN'T I told you?
Confession 30: A few words to, honestly, describe yourself.
- Socially awkward geek prone to mood swings. Amazing regardless.
I DUNNO. My former sociology professor was this massive linguistics nerd, and he made it sound special.
I'm going to steal this and do it on Dreamwidth~
And you DID steal it. And I answered it so eloquently with VANDRITHS.
But I like your accent. ;~;
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