have a strange snense that..something big is going to happen soon. my anger boils in my blood and the lonliness is..like a cold sheet of ice that holds me. i wish i could just grab her and tell her everything i feel for her.. but i know if i do..she will abandon me like all the others. i shake in her presence. my speech is slurred and i studder like a fool.
i wish my mouth would just spit the words out.. but...instead they drool.
i would much rather be with a female... they know how to love open heartedly.
but here i am..with an engagemnt ring... i cant believe what i have done.
:|
i needs hugs.