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14 years ago
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I finally felt like getting this down tonight into writing. I have lots of things on my mind, but its been hard to put them in cohesive thoughts. Sometimes I overcomplicate things I need to express and sometimes its best just to say what needs to be said.
College has been going pretty good for me. Right now with my schedule it just means missing a lot of cons because I have classes Friday and early Monday. Even if I did find a way to get out of them on Friday, most people I know stay until Tuesday at the cons because otherwise its too much work to get back. I suppose I can live with the fact that I won't be able to possibly attend another con until 2013.
As far as my classwork goes, I need to relax. I keep thinking I need to get A's in everything just to prove I know what is being taught. I just need to keep my grades up in general. Why do I feel I need to know everything right away? Its not going to get me to graduation any faster.
Second, one of my friends wound up in the hospital this weekend. He is out and doing ok now, but it just made me feel scared for a while. Sometimes bad things just happen to good people and there really isn't much you can do for them except be there for them.
Third, I realized last week marked one year of going to meets at [faicon]Nbowa[/faicon]'s. When I first started going there I was shy, didnt know many people and was quiet. Now I'm very social and outgoing (aside from being the local object for tickling since Dusty never shows up anymore). It amazing how many people I have met there (and most likely will still meet!)
Fourth, I guess I'm just going through a really hard time right now and I want things to settle back down again. I have a lot bottled up inside, but I am trying to let it out in a peaceful way. Yes, I know my first attempt at a fursuit wasn't that great. Frankly, I have been tolerating a lot from people and I need to be more vocal about saying when something does bother me and when it doesn't. I have someone with a lot of suit making/repairing experience helping me with my snow leopard suit. I have the fur and the tools, I just need to assemble stuff. My mentor [faicon]Mahadri[/faicon] is currently enroute to Furry Fiesta.
Not really sure what else I want to say right now. I just need time to calm down and get ready for the week. It will be a busy one, for sure.
College has been going pretty good for me. Right now with my schedule it just means missing a lot of cons because I have classes Friday and early Monday. Even if I did find a way to get out of them on Friday, most people I know stay until Tuesday at the cons because otherwise its too much work to get back. I suppose I can live with the fact that I won't be able to possibly attend another con until 2013.
As far as my classwork goes, I need to relax. I keep thinking I need to get A's in everything just to prove I know what is being taught. I just need to keep my grades up in general. Why do I feel I need to know everything right away? Its not going to get me to graduation any faster.
Second, one of my friends wound up in the hospital this weekend. He is out and doing ok now, but it just made me feel scared for a while. Sometimes bad things just happen to good people and there really isn't much you can do for them except be there for them.
Third, I realized last week marked one year of going to meets at [faicon]Nbowa[/faicon]'s. When I first started going there I was shy, didnt know many people and was quiet. Now I'm very social and outgoing (aside from being the local object for tickling since Dusty never shows up anymore). It amazing how many people I have met there (and most likely will still meet!)
Fourth, I guess I'm just going through a really hard time right now and I want things to settle back down again. I have a lot bottled up inside, but I am trying to let it out in a peaceful way. Yes, I know my first attempt at a fursuit wasn't that great. Frankly, I have been tolerating a lot from people and I need to be more vocal about saying when something does bother me and when it doesn't. I have someone with a lot of suit making/repairing experience helping me with my snow leopard suit. I have the fur and the tools, I just need to assemble stuff. My mentor [faicon]Mahadri[/faicon] is currently enroute to Furry Fiesta.
Not really sure what else I want to say right now. I just need time to calm down and get ready for the week. It will be a busy one, for sure.
I hope your friend recovers swiftly and hope to see you again real soon
And yeah, I just get paranoid about grades. Before I got this degree, I kept applying for jobs (my first degree was a different major) and I most times I couldn't even get an interview. Past experience just has me on guard and I really shouldn't worry so much as most places are in need of people with my talents now with this degree.