i know this may sound bad but i dont know where else to put this,

the girl i have loved since i first laid eyes on her 4 years ago has crushed my heart and i dont know what i lay away with aweful thoughts running thru my head i cant sleep i cant do anything all i think about is her all the good things about her all the bad things she did to me all the bad things i did to her the more i think the more questions i have, sometimes i ask her these questions when she will talk to me in the hope getting a answer will help me out but its just leads to more questions questions i cant stop thinking about till i ask then i hate myself for knowing the answer

i dont know wat to do i can tell i am in a mental slide but i dont know how to put the brakes on how to dig my self out of this

in writing this i dunno how anyone can really help me but i dont know wat else to do.