Well, my writing might be postponed a bit. Life's taken a gut punch to me. You know what they say about not telling a single lie, because that one will end up snowballing into a while thing that will kill you in the end?

Well, it hit me. Yeah, this dragon's managed, in the middle of a storm, to screw over his life. The simple lie is, months ago, someone asking me if I had my own place. I'm 23, and my life hasn't been the best to me. What was I expected to say.

And now here, months later, someone I care deeply about, more then I can put into words, is ending up hating me for that one lie I told. He's been wanting to visit me, and I've been wanting to meet him for this long. I don't think he knows how much he means to me.

He hates people telling lies to him, so admitting this will only make him hate me. Right now it just feels like my life is tumbling around me like a bunch of cardboard that got cut from its strings. I want nothing more then to just be in his arms right now and cry my eyes out because of all this, but I have half a mind to think he'll turn me away.

I love him...no matter what, I will always love him. I've loved him for this long, and I won't give up. But if he gives up on me...I don't know what I'd do. I'm just a stupid, fucked up dragon who's got his brain screwed in wrong. Who doesn't know the first thing about a decent relationship, and who doesn't have half the attention span that he should have for the things that he cares about the most...

I can't express how sorry I am to him. No amount of apology can make this go away. And that's what I'm afraid of. Losing the one thing I held so dear..