I want to see her in so much pain. I am not even kidding. It's not right. I'm not going to do anything, of course but... I just... Want her to know what she put me through. To the point where the though is thrilling.

I have decided I am too violent for my own good. I need to remember what it means to be human. I need to separate myself from what is in me. I can be better than this.