parfois le courage c'est arriver a montrer un visage souriant meme si on as pas envie.
je sais ce que c'est d'avoir son propre corps echapper a son controle du a des medicaments "sans effet colateraux"
je connais bien le principe d'avoir a montrer un masque en permanence au gens pour pas les inquieter ou pour ne pas avoir a supporter leur pitier.

cela ne veux pas dire que on est des trouillard ou pire.

on affronte juste la vie avec les "cartes qui nous sont donner"

j'ai pleurer plus d'une fois la nuit moi aussi avec mes douleurs ou mes desespoirs.
je me suis meme demander souvent pourquoi je continue a prendre les medicaments

mais je continue tout de meme de mettre le masque quand je suis avec des gens.
meme si la plupart on decider de me lacher apres ma "grosse attaque" en 2010

on y peut rien, on vit juste avec du mieux que on peut...

Aww.... dear. It is total okay not to be brave, it is okay to feel little and insecure, to feel powerless, terrified and frightened. And consequently; to fear death. It is a severe condition, and the threatment is extreme. I know, I have familiy members, that has gone through, the same you are now.
But what I am, but a total stranger? I do have the heart and mind of af rat, and I feel compelled to support other rats, that (for whatever reason) is less fortunate than I am.
I may not be able to do much; but whatever little I can do, I'll do. I can only hope, that my words can soothe you just a tiny bit. The bottomline is: you do not need to pretend to be strong, when you are weak. Much rat love, Rattie

Hon... you're doing what you must. It really sucks right now, and I'm so sorry for you. Hopefully you will be better soon and life will be much happier.

I want to tell you that you should not feel bad about being afraid and sad and even despairing, it's very natural and important that you feel those emotions and that you talk about them if you can. You are facing the worst life has to give us - the possibility of an end to it. While you may have really good chances that things will work out, it is still the most frightening thing ever, and so you'd be silly not to feel terrified.

I also want to tell you that you should not feel bad about being happy either. If you can find a few hours each day to forget the terribleness a little and just smile, then that is a good thing. If you pretend for others then that's bad, but if you genuinely feel glad for a little while, then that is really good! No one can be frightened and sad all the time, we also have other emotions.

Whatever you feel, emotions are there for a reason, so they are NEVER wrong. It's ok, allow yourself to feel whatever you need to feel. This is the right time to be selfish.

You are in the thoughts of a lot of people.

-hugs tightly-

If i don't go and endure all those treatments and the pain associated with it, i will DIE. > Omg, don't even say that bad word! You are NOT going to die, you will going to be live on! But if the very worst happens, you will always be remembered! REMEMBER THAT! Please please hold on, you will push on thru!

There will always be another big bright shiny tomorrow!

Lots and lots of hugs of this wolfie!

I might not know you but i heard of this news about you and i wanted to give you my thoughts because i feel so sorry for you...

I will hope that you will beat this...cancer is a terrible thing and you WILL beat it!! All of your friends believe in you, they care about you, they love you and they will never give up on you...

You say you might not be brave but try to be strong! Try very hard to be strong and believe that you can beat this terrible disease...

I wish you good luck and my thoughts are with you Cookie :3 Seriously...i'm a nice guy and i am a caring guy :3

Arbuzan Rakiri.

I don't think you're being fair to yourself at all.

Just because you 'have to' go through with these things don't mean that you're not strong. People deal with things in very different manners, and you are shouldering it very well, and not letting it get you down. That says a whole lot about the kind of person you are - strong, independent and definitely not going to let some stupid illness get in your way <3

It's okay to to be insecure and be terrified. You're doing what you need to do. You may not feel it, but you are strong and a survivor for doing everything you need to do. *sends lots of hugs your way*

With you being strong like this, you can beat this illness and do anything.

*hugs* ^^
Hun, if you weren't brave, you would have ended things already, or hid from the terrifying truth until it took an angel away from us.

Sometimes it is a good thing to admitting that you are scared. I would be if I was in your situation. You want to know something else? It takes a whole lot of courage to admitting that you are scared.

I know that we don't know each other that much, but I feel that I have to help out in any way. I hope this means something to you, and I'll be praying for you.