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Every once in a wild some of us wish the following
14 years ago
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The Driveway
(By Zets)
My life is good
Healf(Mostly), Financials(Good), friends(Enought that cares for me), famely (Love me i love them, work(I like it), (School) Tired of it.
Aldaught even when all seam fine there are thoose nights where you just look outside and you would just wish someone to arive in there car, you get inside of it, he ask you where you want to go, you say anywhere and then you say floor it.
This urging feeling to want to escape everything everyone and just be somewhere else whithout no one knowing where you will be and you not knowing where you would go but just being on a random dark empty road just looking at street light and lething your mind escape.
Tonight is one of thoose nights witch i would just wish a car like this would stop in my driveway.
The answer is, would i ever ask him to turn back after a wild, or let as mutch distance as posible seperate myself and this city.
I love this city beyond what most could bealeve but right now i just want to be in a car and it going fast.
Maybe one day, this will happend to me.
Until then il keep looking at the driveway.
(Hope this sound familiar to some of you and that you been able to connec and feel good or bad feelings about it)
Feal free to comment =)
*hugs*
im sure you know i could tell you how bad that would be and how in the end you wouldn't "really" be happy. and im sure you would do the same if someone you knew was thinking the same thing. but! we also both know that it wouldn't change there mind for a second. so the only real thing i can do is give you my lovings *snuggles tightly* and say that i understand. because i have been in your shoes a few times in my life~
I totely understand what you mean by that =)
The fact that this fantasy keeps coming back to you seems to me to mean that something in your life is being neglected. Maybe you're on the wrong track, going in the wrong direction. Maybe you're ignoring something that you need to take care of. Maybe you want to go back to an easier, more secure time. Only you know for sure. Try this: when you're in bed and realize that you're about to fall asleep, think about that car; get into it and see where it takes you; try to see who's driving. (It might take two or three tries to make this work.)
Whatever you find at the end of the ride, don't be afraid of it. It's a desire, not a sin. *hugs* We've all been in one situation or another we regret.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cXu2MhWYUuE
Maybe you're trying to escape something; maybe you are feeling trapped? You've been preoccupied with your self-identity. Maybe you feel that your work, and people in general have expectations of you that don't always mesh with your own identity? Maybe you are having trouble separating the identities you feel people are imposing on you with your own innate identity? You want to be your own person and not simply what others expect you to be?
Or, perhaps you simply have a desire to live on the wild side. To experience life on the edge where it's at its most vivid extreme.
Anyway....those are my thoughts.