Chin up bud. It may come down to ultimately what you decide you want yourself to do as a person....you have to break the habit. We get used to...addicted to certain emotions sometimes, even depression. We follow those loops that drag us down.

If you want to be happy. Be Happy. But nothing is more important than that single line there and its so easily overlooked cause we get so caught up in our depression we cant possible think we have control to do so. Our force of will is truely amazing if we try to focus. You have to find that habit that brings you down again though....notice it... Break It. Interrupt it or catch yourself with it. Negative thoughts, past memories, or even ideas of feeling useless.

Break that habit by thinking to yourself....Im not going to be sad. Its not fun being sad. I prefer the sun, smileing, laughing. Dance, music, taste, life....

So chin up my friend. Chin up. This world is far too great to live in a depressive state. We have so much....so much potential in this life. In the scheme of things were all still so young and have so much to learn and experiance. We will have bumps in the road but we also have that potential to become great in spirit and mind.

I know a digital hug isnt much of a representation of care these days. But truely I mean it this way as Ive known you far longer than most any of my friends, I have shared great experiances with you I havent had with most of my friends. But I hope that this hug reaches you one day again and for now you can feel it across the ocean bud

*hug*

*pokes you with the fish*
...
This thing is starting to smell...

*hug*

feel better hun...

V.