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Alone and hated

13 years ago

Let me tell you what happened to me when I was in the city today. When I was just casually walking and minding my own business I suddenly came across some familiar faces from the times when I was working in the library last autumn. These people were the drunkards who were the same customers who had threatened me when I was working in the library. And of course they happened to recognized me as that retarded and ugly guy from the library and as being piss-ass drunks once again, started shouting and threatening at me when I was just passing by, just like how they did back in the library. Well, luckily nothing worse happened for now as I managed to just walk away from the situation, even though I would have wanted to shout back.

And seriously, social situations have ALWAYS been extremely difficult for me, that's why I take these such threatenings seriously were they really serious or not. The working days at the library have seriously traumatized me because of these such people, just like how my school days did too.

Overall, this experience really has made me angered and depressed. I CAN'T STAND HOW I'M GETTING EVERYONE HATE ME JUST EVEN THOUGH I HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING WRONG! BOTH IN REAL LIFE AN HERE ONLINE! SERIOUSLY, WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG? WHY ONLY BAD THINGS KEEP HAPPENING TO ME? WHY NOTHING GOOD CAN EVER HAPPEN?

Really, nobody seem to really care about me and I have to be all alone all the damn time since everyone seem to hate me. I really can't stand my life and this loneliness...

29 Comments

AntiReaper ~antireaper

king dork of north

13 years ago

hmmh Let me at em! I'll shove kossubottles up their asses..

Squirrelette ~squirrelette

Anthro Artist

13 years ago

i'll join in.i hate drunkards.or i should say those guys are alcoholic.
i would pee in the glass they drink

Sir Kiljaos Windmane ~kilju

Fantasy Artist

13 years ago

I hate those too. Peeing in the glasses it a great idea

Squirrelette ~squirrelette

Anthro Artist

13 years ago

i actually i drew that in one of my pic

Sir Kiljaos Windmane ~kilju

Fantasy Artist

13 years ago

Hyvä idea XD

AntiReaper ~antireaper

king dork of north

13 years ago

bottoms up

Rhunen Staldrad ~shadowmeere

stressed plaguedoctor

13 years ago

=/
they are such a stupid persons, but dont worry ,all the bad things they have done will come back at they someday.

i really know that feeling milord, some people maded the same at me when i was just walking around now i fear to go outside my home .-.

but dont pay attention to they,they will find the things harder soon.
i know its hard, but try to dont allow they to affect you. if they come again to bther you just smile and keep walking.

and dont think no one cares about you, i do care about you, even i'm not allways online but you are allways on my thoughts and i will be here to hear you (or read X3) and give yu a nice hug ^^

*hugs tight* just dont wrry and try to not pay attention to they milord ^^

Sir Kiljaos Windmane ~kilju

Fantasy Artist

13 years ago

Hopefully, but since in the world there's so much injustice and evil, I doubt the bad things will ever come back to them.

Awwww, that's really sweet of you^^. You are always on my thoughts as well milady ^^ *hugs*

Dark_Fox_Okajima ~darkfoxokajima

Writer

13 years ago

Back when I left home to study, I begun to feel the same way. Here I'm persecuted by people, and things only got worse when I moved out. People kept banging at my door, ordering me to open up only to annoy the hell out of and laugh at me for everything I tried to do. Even people that saw me for the first time begun to make fun of me and say they thought they were bad but after seeing me they felt there was hope for them...I've really begun to grow so much hate and suffered so much I thought of killing myself several times. I've been very close to it again once too, but then I knew even if I had killed myself they would have just laughed at me even more.

So you know what? Screw people. If they treat you bad it's better be alone. Nothing good ever comes from people either way, and most of the time, friends prove to be a burden as well as they demand attention the whole damn time, and if you say no just once they get mad at you like crazy...

Then, I understand how you are feeling right now, but that's the way people is, and you don't want anythig to do with them, trust me...but still, not everyone is like that. Not everyone, but most people. Just ignore those bastards who are bad, and mind the bright side of things.

Squirrelette ~squirrelette

Anthro Artist

13 years ago

well said.i would fave this comment if i could

Dark_Fox_Okajima ~darkfoxokajima

Writer

13 years ago

Thanks ^_^

Sir Kiljaos Windmane ~kilju

Fantasy Artist

13 years ago

I understand that feeling. I experienced such especially when I got into a new school in junior high. I got right away laughed and bullied at right from the first day. I ended up changing school whereas the bullies stayed.

Yes you are completly right about people. It's too bad there's not much good people like you for example.

Dark_Fox_Okajima ~darkfoxokajima

Writer

13 years ago

It's easier to act tough and be bullies...but don't let that ever bring you down.

Squirrelette ~squirrelette

Anthro Artist

13 years ago

im glad you didnt shout at them.they might get violent like all alcoholics do.been there,done that,had a black eye and a fucked up head
i said a similar prob when the guy who stole my laptop came shouting through the letterbox at work shouting at me and i just ignored him.
i think he went when i picked up my phone,thing i was going to call the police on him.all i was doing was changing the song i had on
alckies are dumb and like to think theyre big.if they do that again call the police as it is an offence.you could get them done for threat

Sir Kiljaos Windmane ~kilju

Fantasy Artist

13 years ago

Awww, that's awful you've experienced such too *hugs*
I really hate drunkards. It's just too bad that finnish culture is heavily based on drinking like crazy and people like me who don't drink are being heavily rejected. That is why I'm not always very proud of being finnish