Okay. Mr "I am all mightier than thou" ex-bf of mine seems to find it amusing to stalk my journals even though he has blocked me with the pathetic cliché of "Keep your friends close but your enemies closer" Yes okay whatever...

Now. He sent me a message on his alternative Facebook account (which he had not blocked me on for some reason) stating that he found out about my pregnancy on my journal here. Fair enough. But, from this and comments made on said journal he seemed to come up with the conclusion that I cheated on him. That comment was a reply to one of my friends which was;
"Pretty much says it there. I stopped having periods after November; but wasn't active until Early Feb and used protection at all times. Docs advised I take a test and I have and both came back as positive. So yeah."

Now. I will make it clear that I broke up with him on the 4th of February, making this early February, and yes after I broke up I hooked up with a guy from uni, whose name remains anonymous due to legal, confidentiality reasons I have had to abide by; except in medical reasons for my baby. Okay, so next point the thing that could have caused the reason for him thinking I was cheating, the lack of periods as of November.

Well that can be explained quite easily. I suffer from a medical condition called "amenorrhoea" which occurred at the same time in the year previous, I went to see the doctor and suggested the cause could by ovarian cysts, which made me panic. Well, since I also suffer from reoccurring cystitis this seemed to be the case. However, after being treated for cystitis I was advised to take some tests by the doctor just to be safe as I had been sexually active after I broke up with my ex. Bear in mind this was now late February by the time I took the tests, and since test are effective from 2 weeks or even less then it is perfectly evidential that I did not cheat on him.

Just to add, he also told one of my best friends this, and sent him the message that I quoted above, most likely to put me in the wrong; however my friend nor him knew of my medical records. So those are the facts.

As an update on baby, I am only carrying one, whom I have nicknamed "Singleton" I went for a scan to make sure that there was a baby there and that I was not suffering from a rare condition known as pseudopregnancy. Well yes there was a little baby there and everything is okay with him/her for now; but until the second trimester things could go wrong, which I have had nightmares about and the stress from my ex does not help either. Not to mention I have been getting cramps; which is never a good sign.

I need all the support I can get from family and friends in these difficult times and I hope this clears up some issues so I don't seem like some cheating, whore who runs around with her legs wide open. Those who have been friends for me for a long time know how badly a previous relationship was when a man I called my Soulmate went behind my back with other people, again I wont mention names for confidentiality reasons, but he hurt me so bad and I thought I would not really recover; and let's be honest I really truly have not.

I have my new partner by my side, he knows of my situation and he is willing to accept that it was an accident and he knows I am not a cheater. He has been through me through a lot of issues and I could not ask any more from him as he already provides all the support and more from him. I just do not need any of my friends turning their backs on me due to false accusations; I have already lost contact with a lot of friends due to my old job and moving to uni, some people who were very, very close. Now I just feel awkward around them; which really does hurt and does not help with the stress either. I fear if all this continues that something will go wrong somewhere before I hit the safe zone. Fingers and toes crossed.

Lots of love, hugs and licks from Rix