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No More iSinMuffin
13 years ago
I'm a little saddened that no one cared much about my last update. But then at this point I'm fed up anyways.
Here's what's happened this week c:
Monday I ventured to West Virginia with my dad to pick up some windows for his job. We got lunch there and it was nice. I talked about AnthroCon and how badly I wanted to go most the time. I got to texting some friends and one friend who lives in Pittsburgh said that I can stay in the spare bedroom of his lil place he has with his two room-mates. Great! God, I have a place to stay now! All I need to do is get bus fare, food money, and I'm set! Oh, happy day!
Tuesday was okay. I wake up, get online, everything is just peachy... My boyfriend says we need to talk. And to sum it all up in one big emotional mess to spare you guys, he dumped me. So I'm single again.
Wednesday was amazing, surprisingly enough. I hung out at Curious sandbox on SecondLife all day and had a great time. Made about 6 new friends and it was a great rebuttal to the terrible depression of the day before. I also took most of the morning of that day to apply for jobs on snagajob.com. I need money for AnthroCon and so I have to take initiative. I went to sleep in early morning around.. I dunno.. 6am?
I wake up Thursday morning at around 7am. My body decides it wants to make me sick. I throw up and don't go to class that day. Go back to sleep for a few hours. I wake up around.. About.. Ehhh 2pm or so. I go to get on my desktop computer. Oh hell, my desktop wants to say "fuck you" and won't turn on. c: Power button totally unresponsive. To think that only 12 hours prior, it was working JUST fine and running SL and everything. Yup. Apparently the power supply unit blew. Chances of it taking my motherboard and hard drive with it? Extremely likely. So great. Well I'm out of a gaming computer. Okay. It's okay, I have a laptop.. I mean sure, I lost ALL my SecondLife photos and including ones I editted but.. I dunno.. That's still a lil saddening. Lucky for me when it was acting up a week or so prior to Thursday, I backed up all my mod textures and such to my laptop and school laptop. How was it acting up, you say? Well for some reason the volume kept auto-decreasing itself and if I were in browser, it would keep opening my bookmarks tab. And because it did it continually and non-stop, my tower would beep at me. My monitor also auto-powered off on itself and refused to turn back on at one point. I had to go into sleep mode via a button on my keyboard and then moved the mouse and it came back on. For the past 2 years I have not even once touched my desktop except for occasional file transfer. I have had it for roughly 5 or so years at the most. I got a lil over a month's usage out of it from February 14 (around there) to March 29th.
Thursday evening. From about.. Oh.. 5pm.. To 7am. I was awake. Doing NOTHING but burning ALL my files on my laptop onto disks. It took nearly 25 disks to do the job, which really was all I had. Those disks are plastic gold to me. They are sitting in my underwear drawer in a case. But yes, I spent over 12 hours burning well over thousands of files to disks. Waiting and waiting. Why was I doing this? Well my desktop ran SecondLife on low graphics just fine and Minecraft was easy to play! (Free version of course since I'm a poor ass) My desktop was amazing for gaming! My laptop? Total shit-stack. It won't run anything right. Can barely play Runescape on it and that's when NOTHING else is open at all. So.. Ya. Total piece 'o poo. I figured maybe if I reset/restore the whole thing, it will get better speed. Nope!
I was already very apprehensive of restoring it. I woke up Friday morning and I played on my laptop a bit. Talking to people and junk. Trying to avoid image sites so I don't save anything to a laptop I'm going to be resetting. A friend came over and I spent time with him. So later on in the night, around I believe 1am, I finally decided to restore the laptop. With the final words of "Wish me luck" to a friend on skype, I set out to restore the laptop in hopes and excitement that I would be able to play SecondLife on it very soon.
Not the case.
I went about restoring it. It was sitting on my lap table. So I laid back in my bed and rested a bit while it worked it's magic. The screen read that it would take about an hour. I didn't fall asleep but about 30 minutes passed. All of a sudden there was an error in the restoring. Then my computer restarted itself.. We come to this beautiful black screen of death. White letters. No color. It says there was a hardware problem. Okay.. Says I need my windows installation disk. I tore my room apart for 30 minutes and I couldn't find the disk. I gave up finally and got on my school laptop and talked on skype before going to sleep at around 3am. In the middle of the night, I look up and there's a white disk slip on my bed headboard. What could this be? Ah yes! It's my windows installation disk! I remember taking it out of the laptop's instruction box thingy and putting it up there to install windows 7 32bit a while ago. I place it in my undies drawer with my golden disks and go back to sleep.
I wake up. Saturday morning. Here I am. I was all excited and happy thinking that all was not lost. I put the disk in, reset the computer like it says to do. The disk reader makes a lil noise and then.. Nothing.. Same error.. I fell into a dark hole inside. Two computers in one week?.. Am I that unlucky?... So I restarted it a few more times.. I noticed in the bottom left corner when the HP welcome screen comes up, it says "Press esc for options stuff blah blah" and so I did. Up came a few things. I saw "Run system diagnostics" and in that menu there were different things to diagnose. I diagnosed a few things, including the hard disk. The test came out with a failure. Again, hopes crushed. I decide to call HP. I talk for a good 30 minutes to some foreign lady and get the end result that my hard drive has pooped out. That's why my laptop ran slow before. And restoring it I guess was the final push off the edge. That's why the disk wouldn't help the error message either. A new hard drive for my laptop is $95 and since it's a few years old, the warranty has ran out on it. I need a hard drive SPECIFIC to my laptop, too. So no getting around that.
I thought the most of my concerns lied with getting a bit of money for AnthroCon at the beginning of this week.. I thought that I would soon be in my boy friend's arms and be happy and everything would be pleasant.. I thought that maybe I could make a new mod this week on SecondLife..
Why is this happening? Should I fear for the rest of my possessions and happiness? I haven't been able to get a job in an entire year.. And now.. I am left with this school laptop. It belongs to a school that I have not been enrolled in for about 3 months. My sister still goes to that school. They're going to want their laptop back soon. What the hell am I supposed to do then? What can I do, really.. I can't get a job, I can't just expect my parents to help, and I don't really know anyone that can directly help me. My friend has a possible desktop that he is going to fiddle with but.. It's just.. I feel like giving up at this point.. To lose everything all at once in one week.. These computers are my life. I do all my art and expressing of myself on them.. And hell.. What if the disks with my laptop data on them got corrupted? Or something?... I'd.. I'd just.. Sigh.. This is another update for you guys.. Don't expect me around much. I'm praying for a miracle, praying that ONE of my friends can help me out while I still have contact with the interwebs. Thanks for reading, if you read this far..
Here's what's happened this week c:
Monday I ventured to West Virginia with my dad to pick up some windows for his job. We got lunch there and it was nice. I talked about AnthroCon and how badly I wanted to go most the time. I got to texting some friends and one friend who lives in Pittsburgh said that I can stay in the spare bedroom of his lil place he has with his two room-mates. Great! God, I have a place to stay now! All I need to do is get bus fare, food money, and I'm set! Oh, happy day!
Tuesday was okay. I wake up, get online, everything is just peachy... My boyfriend says we need to talk. And to sum it all up in one big emotional mess to spare you guys, he dumped me. So I'm single again.
Wednesday was amazing, surprisingly enough. I hung out at Curious sandbox on SecondLife all day and had a great time. Made about 6 new friends and it was a great rebuttal to the terrible depression of the day before. I also took most of the morning of that day to apply for jobs on snagajob.com. I need money for AnthroCon and so I have to take initiative. I went to sleep in early morning around.. I dunno.. 6am?
I wake up Thursday morning at around 7am. My body decides it wants to make me sick. I throw up and don't go to class that day. Go back to sleep for a few hours. I wake up around.. About.. Ehhh 2pm or so. I go to get on my desktop computer. Oh hell, my desktop wants to say "fuck you" and won't turn on. c: Power button totally unresponsive. To think that only 12 hours prior, it was working JUST fine and running SL and everything. Yup. Apparently the power supply unit blew. Chances of it taking my motherboard and hard drive with it? Extremely likely. So great. Well I'm out of a gaming computer. Okay. It's okay, I have a laptop.. I mean sure, I lost ALL my SecondLife photos and including ones I editted but.. I dunno.. That's still a lil saddening. Lucky for me when it was acting up a week or so prior to Thursday, I backed up all my mod textures and such to my laptop and school laptop. How was it acting up, you say? Well for some reason the volume kept auto-decreasing itself and if I were in browser, it would keep opening my bookmarks tab. And because it did it continually and non-stop, my tower would beep at me. My monitor also auto-powered off on itself and refused to turn back on at one point. I had to go into sleep mode via a button on my keyboard and then moved the mouse and it came back on. For the past 2 years I have not even once touched my desktop except for occasional file transfer. I have had it for roughly 5 or so years at the most. I got a lil over a month's usage out of it from February 14 (around there) to March 29th.
Thursday evening. From about.. Oh.. 5pm.. To 7am. I was awake. Doing NOTHING but burning ALL my files on my laptop onto disks. It took nearly 25 disks to do the job, which really was all I had. Those disks are plastic gold to me. They are sitting in my underwear drawer in a case. But yes, I spent over 12 hours burning well over thousands of files to disks. Waiting and waiting. Why was I doing this? Well my desktop ran SecondLife on low graphics just fine and Minecraft was easy to play! (Free version of course since I'm a poor ass) My desktop was amazing for gaming! My laptop? Total shit-stack. It won't run anything right. Can barely play Runescape on it and that's when NOTHING else is open at all. So.. Ya. Total piece 'o poo. I figured maybe if I reset/restore the whole thing, it will get better speed. Nope!
I was already very apprehensive of restoring it. I woke up Friday morning and I played on my laptop a bit. Talking to people and junk. Trying to avoid image sites so I don't save anything to a laptop I'm going to be resetting. A friend came over and I spent time with him. So later on in the night, around I believe 1am, I finally decided to restore the laptop. With the final words of "Wish me luck" to a friend on skype, I set out to restore the laptop in hopes and excitement that I would be able to play SecondLife on it very soon.
Not the case.
I went about restoring it. It was sitting on my lap table. So I laid back in my bed and rested a bit while it worked it's magic. The screen read that it would take about an hour. I didn't fall asleep but about 30 minutes passed. All of a sudden there was an error in the restoring. Then my computer restarted itself.. We come to this beautiful black screen of death. White letters. No color. It says there was a hardware problem. Okay.. Says I need my windows installation disk. I tore my room apart for 30 minutes and I couldn't find the disk. I gave up finally and got on my school laptop and talked on skype before going to sleep at around 3am. In the middle of the night, I look up and there's a white disk slip on my bed headboard. What could this be? Ah yes! It's my windows installation disk! I remember taking it out of the laptop's instruction box thingy and putting it up there to install windows 7 32bit a while ago. I place it in my undies drawer with my golden disks and go back to sleep.
I wake up. Saturday morning. Here I am. I was all excited and happy thinking that all was not lost. I put the disk in, reset the computer like it says to do. The disk reader makes a lil noise and then.. Nothing.. Same error.. I fell into a dark hole inside. Two computers in one week?.. Am I that unlucky?... So I restarted it a few more times.. I noticed in the bottom left corner when the HP welcome screen comes up, it says "Press esc for options stuff blah blah" and so I did. Up came a few things. I saw "Run system diagnostics" and in that menu there were different things to diagnose. I diagnosed a few things, including the hard disk. The test came out with a failure. Again, hopes crushed. I decide to call HP. I talk for a good 30 minutes to some foreign lady and get the end result that my hard drive has pooped out. That's why my laptop ran slow before. And restoring it I guess was the final push off the edge. That's why the disk wouldn't help the error message either. A new hard drive for my laptop is $95 and since it's a few years old, the warranty has ran out on it. I need a hard drive SPECIFIC to my laptop, too. So no getting around that.
I thought the most of my concerns lied with getting a bit of money for AnthroCon at the beginning of this week.. I thought that I would soon be in my boy friend's arms and be happy and everything would be pleasant.. I thought that maybe I could make a new mod this week on SecondLife..
Why is this happening? Should I fear for the rest of my possessions and happiness? I haven't been able to get a job in an entire year.. And now.. I am left with this school laptop. It belongs to a school that I have not been enrolled in for about 3 months. My sister still goes to that school. They're going to want their laptop back soon. What the hell am I supposed to do then? What can I do, really.. I can't get a job, I can't just expect my parents to help, and I don't really know anyone that can directly help me. My friend has a possible desktop that he is going to fiddle with but.. It's just.. I feel like giving up at this point.. To lose everything all at once in one week.. These computers are my life. I do all my art and expressing of myself on them.. And hell.. What if the disks with my laptop data on them got corrupted? Or something?... I'd.. I'd just.. Sigh.. This is another update for you guys.. Don't expect me around much. I'm praying for a miracle, praying that ONE of my friends can help me out while I still have contact with the interwebs. Thanks for reading, if you read this far..
Kamunt
~kamunt
I'm very sorry to hear all of this... That's a whole lot of shit for one person to have to deal with in such a short timespan. Are you making sure to follow up on applications you submit? Send an e-mail or call someone to see if they have gotten your application, and to let them know that you're extremely interested in the position? That's all important stuff... I sure hope that something works out for you soon, though. And I know how hard it is to find a job out there... Just keep trying. Summer positions will likely be opening soon. Look around to local businesses that might be wanting stupid college students who are back for the summer, and apply before said stupids can.
iSinMuffin
~isinmuffin
OP
Thank you.. I'm doing what I can to hold myself together. I do plan to call in at the places I applied and check up. I'm going to also see if I can get my job back at the place I worked at in the beginning of last year. I'm just very worried for everything at this point. Again, thank you for your encouragements and reading my journal. And responding of course.
Kamunt
~kamunt
No problem at all. I hate it when good people go through bad times.
