it turns out that the tooth that needed the root canal just needed a deep filling, so one down and 1 possible root canal to go. with any luck the next one will be just as good. it turns out that the reason that my mouth is degrading and my teeth are having issues has almost nothing to do with my brushing. my mouth is unusually dry and it attracts bacteria because of it. that is destroying my teeth and breath. so we are working on ways to help but have found nothing so far.

my sisters are possibly moving in to my parents house again for a little, or a long, while. this means that the friend of the family that lives with us now. he is like a brother to me and i really am going to miss him. my sisters and i are not close. they find it best to not talk while i am in the room and i dont even know if the two that are moving in have boyfriends. they keep everything from me that a normal family member should know. we are not incredibly close. so it will be a challenge. but i am going to not worry about it. i will keep to myself as i used to do and i will always have my bunny/ wife so i will be fine. they are nice to me when we do talk so at least it wont be that uncomfortable, and i am sure we can work on our relationships if they live here again.


also my bunny and i are finally thinking about getting our own place. it will take time and proper planning but it may be time to take the next step in our lives. our own place will be tough and i may not even have internet access at first, but it is exciting. we will find our feet i am sure. my mom in law is going to help us by taking a loan on the house (possibly) to help us get a down payment. we are looking around and we have found a fair amount of places outside our current location. it will be a challenge but it is our lives and our life together and it will happen eventually. hopefully by the end of the year we will have a place of our own and i will be back in school and have a job to help out.

so much happening and i hope that i can cope. i am doing ok i think. i am seeing my psych/therapist soon to get my story out.. my real story. no one but my bunny knows the updates that i know now.. thanks to my PTSD and DID i am still remembering the things that really happened... it is hard but nice to finally tell my story.