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13 years ago
This degree is soooooooo helpful artwise. Already I can tell everything I do is improving rapidly. BUT, there are still holes in where I
want to ideally be. For example, getting into the habit of starting small paintings and marker stuff when I get home AFTER school. My
coloring is just dreadful, and doing that would help immensely I think. >.>
In other news, I'm a loner. Well.. I suppose not ALL the time, but a good solid chunk of my time is devoted to sitting alone thinking,
dreaming, scheming, and whatnot. It's pretty well established that introversion is my natural mode of function. But sometimes I feel
bad about it, like when I leave a group of friends because I really am just not feeling social. I'm at school, and a few moments ago I
left a group of people I hang out with to start browsing FA and listen to music and do homework. Why? I don't know, but even if I have
the feeling of missing something they are getting, I still go to being a recluse. Makes me feel odd and a little too distanced. :/
Oh well, It's probably a normal thing that I'm obsessing too much about.
More art soon, I'm making a lot of it. :B
want to ideally be. For example, getting into the habit of starting small paintings and marker stuff when I get home AFTER school. My
coloring is just dreadful, and doing that would help immensely I think. >.>
In other news, I'm a loner. Well.. I suppose not ALL the time, but a good solid chunk of my time is devoted to sitting alone thinking,
dreaming, scheming, and whatnot. It's pretty well established that introversion is my natural mode of function. But sometimes I feel
bad about it, like when I leave a group of friends because I really am just not feeling social. I'm at school, and a few moments ago I
left a group of people I hang out with to start browsing FA and listen to music and do homework. Why? I don't know, but even if I have
the feeling of missing something they are getting, I still go to being a recluse. Makes me feel odd and a little too distanced. :/
Oh well, It's probably a normal thing that I'm obsessing too much about.
More art soon, I'm making a lot of it. :B
But it's more than that ... it is people that I have to "behave" around, the ones where I have to watch what I say and do, or something will slip out about baby toys or cartoons or anything that's contrary to what I think they'll expect and they'll think I'm weird. A lot of it's in my head, I'm sure. But that situation burns my energy like nothing else.
hard to hold back and control sometimes. :c
Introversion is neither a good nor bad thing, nor is it even permanent. It is merely a state of your current persnoality portfolio (notice I didn't use profile here). At any given time in your life based on your social experiences, biological and cognitive state you will be more likely to act in a certain way, and be comfortable with this.
Or in more lamens terms: Don't feel bad about acting in this way, it's the current version of you. But if you really do have a problem with it, change.
Be kind to yourself. If you need some alone time, that's ok, just don't let it be ALL of the time.