So as a lot of you know, I moved to Arizona at the end of last month in hopes of getting something going. This was somewhat a bad idea considering the amount of money I had left, but I was getting nowhere in Virginia. I left a guy I care for in hopes of getting things back together in my life.

Well I have been here about 3 weeks. I have at least gotten 2 interviews, which is better than what I can say I got in Virgina, but I still don't have a job. I'm fucked by this point. I'm down to my last bit of cash as the plane ticket here(Plus luggage), rent, my phone bill and credit card bill have all pretty much wiped me out. Not to mention food. That's almost 700 bucks spent in one month. This -had- to work.

So far? It hasn't. So now the end of the month is coming. I don't really have money for rent again. Not enough anyway. I can swallow my pride and start asking friends or family for help, but I really didn't want it to get to this point. I honestly considered killing myself before getting to that. And not the "Oh god my life sucks!" kind of way. The, "Well, I've had a good run" kind of way. That's scary XD

Part of me says I should have stayed in VA. I'd at least still have money. Part of me says I should have gone back to Oregon. I'd at least probably be working at McDonald's again. I just can't make good decisions anymore.

Anyone have suggestion on what to do? Advice? Support in some way?

Fawks~