Just no idea how to materialise them.

Trying Fruity Loops Studio for some music making, and it's incredibly difficult to work with or to get what I want.

Same with drawing, I can imagine the image. I can imagine drawing the image. I try to draw the image, it doesn't go anywhere near where it's supposed to go.

Over the past few weeks I've been attending this... eh... project, so to speak, where you're supposed to figure out what you can do and what you like to do. Creativity is a must for me, but when I try my hand at drawing or making a song... I just get so scared and sad about the results.

At least I'm still a wordsmith, but I even doubt that at times. And wordsmithing comes so natural for me that it doesn't look like anything special.

Ugh... complete lack of self-discipline and confidence are breaking me down, and the project is nearing its end...

I have no idea what to do...