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I have terrible paranoia too...
I am always thinking the worst.
I don't trust people. But I don't
think I am as bad as you. D; I
would trust my bestfriend but I
know it isn't your fault. Don't get
me wrong!

I'm like that... I cant let anyone in my room without me being in there, I cant let anyone look for something in my things, afraid they will take something or find something [even if there isn't anything to find] my therapist says I have GAD [General Anxiety Disorder] but its alot more serious then it sounds I cant even talk to a cashier long enough to buy a candy bar without panicking inside my head, I cant look people in the eye, or use a phone, I can manage with somethings, such as a headset with my guild during a raid as I've known them for a long time, or my lover but otherwise... I cant do alot of things because of anxiety and people treat it like it's not a big deal most of the time I'm constantly paranoid, thinking people are watching or making fun of me

basically I understand how you feel, and though you may not want to deal with a therapist it may help

THIS, you're just like me.. Well some parts little different, but in general that sounds just like my situation..
I really have hard time going on outside or anywhere at all, especially alone..

same here, its horrid..and people just don't get how much it affects you

I know right..
Although shoootingstar probably got at least a small idea of how bad it is..
But guess now even she realizes how much it controls everything I do and/or can do :I

-nods- its good to have some friends who can at least somewhat understand it lets you be ...anxious freely I guess? or rather you don't try to hide it around them which helps you become less anxious, because I know half of my issue is worrying other people will realize how awkward and anxious I am

Your not alone with how you feel about this.
I am going through the same thing and it's not your fault :(

Bonnii -- there is nothing wrong with you.

Okay?

Don't -- don't think that you're broken or messed up or a horrible person because you're scared. I know exactly how you feel. I've been there -- I've had people I trusted, even family, take my most important things from me for no reason other than greed and because of that I don't -- I don't trust anyone.

I don't call anyone "friend" unless they know most of my life story and I've known them several years.
The only reason some people even know my real name is because of paypal.
It took prinnyex six years to get my phone number out of me, and she's my SISTER that I will be LIVING WITH soon.

Trust is a very delicate thing -- once someone breaks it, it's hard not to doubt what other people can and might be doing behind closed doors, behind your back, or even while your eyes are closed. Life just doesn't sit well with people like us because we've been hurt or mistreated in the past and it was so often and so bad that it affects us to this day.

I'm 25 years old, and I'm still dealing with this same anxiety, paranoia, and trust issues -- my biggest reason being every person I've ever called a "best friend" betrayed me. And badly. Only two people have ever stuck by me through it when they received that title, though one moved away so far that I can't talk to them anymore, and the other is over the internet and will be with me soon hopefully.

My mother sold my late fiance's highschool ring, my promise ring, our engagement-to-be ring to buy stargate dvd's.
My other best friend stole manga volumes from me, an entire series, and sold them.
My OTHER other best friend lied all during prom night, planning to have some lame ass party the same day I was having my birthday party with what few friends I had, and they were going to go to her party instead of mine. There was no party, so they came to mine as a last resort.

Things like this make it hard for me to trust others, too, especially people I KNOW wouldn't do such horrible things -- but like with my now ex boyfriend -- my trust is harder and harder to gain because of all the times I've been screwed over - been lied to - been cheated - been hurt.. It just ..

Don't think you're an awful person for being human, okay?

Olen samaa mieltä ChewDewin kanssa, että kannattaa puhua tuosta koulun terkkarille tai psykiatrille, sillä tuo paranoia voi helposti mennä niin pahaksi, että se haittaa normaalia elämää.