The last six weeks
13 years ago
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I feel Has been one big obvious lie fest to my face and emotions. I should have followed my mom's advice, there is a reason why moms know more shit, since ya know, they are twice your age at least.
She was right when she told me guys only want one thing, but NO I didn't listen to her since I thought I knew better and could make good decisions with my life and thought guys aren't all like that.
WELL GUESS WHAT MOM?
You proved me wrong. Guys do only want one thing, and it makes me ashamed of myself for falling in the trap. ;n; I should learn being 19-20=/= being mature enough not to listen to motherly advice...*sighs*
This is where General Ackbar comes in and yells "It's a trap!"
So I feel like a tard now.
/thoughts and feelings...I should really learn to keep this stuff off a public places called the Internet.
She was right when she told me guys only want one thing, but NO I didn't listen to her since I thought I knew better and could make good decisions with my life and thought guys aren't all like that.
WELL GUESS WHAT MOM?
You proved me wrong. Guys do only want one thing, and it makes me ashamed of myself for falling in the trap. ;n; I should learn being 19-20=/= being mature enough not to listen to motherly advice...*sighs*
This is where General Ackbar comes in and yells "It's a trap!"
So I feel like a tard now.
/thoughts and feelings...I should really learn to keep this stuff off a public places called the Internet.
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What I'm trying to say is try not to lump everyone in the same category, babe. There's still some guys out there who are capable of loving without it being sexual, and who're okay with long-distance. The problem is that the majority of 'em seem to be gay... I'm very sorry things didn't work out for ya, but try not to give up hope, ya know..?
But what do I know? I was born female c_c and according to some people, I'll never be a 'real guy'.
Chin up, sweets. There's people here for ya and I'm sure they won't mind if you rant 'n rave a lil'.
I like building solid foundations with relationships for awhile before I feel comfortable enough for physical contact, so I totally understand that.
So did you get a sex change? o__o
Yeah, thanks :#
I have not gotten a sex change yet, unfortunately, nor hormone therapy, and it's doubtful I'll ever be able to without financial assistance, but I very much consider myself a man. A rather queer sort of manly man who likes kittens n puppies and the smell of lavender, but still a man.
And you are quite welcome~
The only reason why it's guys I tend to associate with is because I only want relationships with men :3 So I'm sure women are the same way too occasionally as well, I just don't see it.
Haha lol! I always find it funny that women can get away with dressing like men but put a man in a dress and oh noes, watch out! xD
Of course females are like that as well, never said they weren't :P
It's just very frustrating sometimes :(
As for the past 6 weeks well maybe you should analyze all the good things you felt during that time and recognize that you can feel those again even if it's someone else. Though that doesn't mean go right out and get into another relationship- you need time to deal with the emotions of this last one to be able to get over it. It may take weeks or months or even longer but you will know when you're ready.
Haha yes, no denying there were good parts to my last relationship, but it was very dramaish and up and down. I don't know how long it might take...only time can tell that, it's not like I can set a date on when I'll feel better to try out another relationship xD
Who knows years from now you two might have a second chance though even if not hopefully you can atleast be able to redevelop a friendship of some kind over time.
Nope, I never re date. Have problems once, going to have them again. Maybe friendship, I'm not really feeling it right now :<
I know -.- Love is physical a little, but there is so much more to it then that. You don't have to look at person or animal to know you love them, or else I wouldn't love my grandma, because I have never seen her before in my life since she is dead. I love my grandma, whether I see her or not. Love doesn't know distance, only your head does.