I'm getting my lower left rear molar pulled next Friday.. it's been in the waiting.. perhaps if I wasn't so neglectful and chewed tobacco like I did 18 years ago.. but the good thing is I don't do that anymore.. but still is a haunting reminder of my past.. just hope I keep the rest of my teeth for as long as I can..

Another thing, there's something else I did wrong in the past I did, and so want to make things right, but with the affected parties either ignoring or blocking me, how can I get through and express my regret in doing wrong to these people in my past.. I mean, I am human, I make and have made mistakes.. I just hope I don't hurt the friends I currently have in this fandom.. That I don't know how I could handle the loss of my main support system.. I don't mean this to be a rant, per se, more like a.. well.. release of feelings, if you could call it that.. perhaps this isn't the place for this.. *sigh* But to my friends that do read this- I want you all to know my love for each and every one of you comes from the bottom of my heart.. and if I make a mistake, you'd let me know, civilly and discreetly, so I'd never want to lose you as a friend, ever..ok? Thank you all for your friendship, means so much to me.. *hugs*