I'm going to have to go away for a while until I can sort myself out.

I just lost my cat, who was to me, a very close friend and member of my very small family.
The bond we had was something I can't even come close to communicating in words but she was almost like a second mother and a best friend.
It wasn't hard to tell how much she adored me and cared for me like her kitten.
And I'll miss rubbing her fuzzy little belly so much. X'(
She always cared for me when I was sick, made sure I got to bed on time, smelled my food (not because she wanted some but) to make sure it was ok, sat by me while i worked in any part of the house, worried when I was away, rushed to listen to me in the phone when I'd call home, came to visit me if I couldn't sleep, and so so much more.
Every time I come around a corner, I find myself thinking about her. It's going to take a while to get used to this. I'm not sure I'll be the same person when it's done.

1995-2012
I hope she's rolling in fields of catnip, right now. X')