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Why Call for Real Help When American Pie Solves Everything?
13 years ago
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Feeling desperate? uncontrolled? Broken? Lost? At your rope's end?
Are those you love begging you to call a Crisis Hotline?
Feel like you may indeed need to call a Crisis Hotline?
Don't.
Or don't call a local version of the number.
...if you live in my area.
I got a lady who, between my bawling and her heavy accent, didn't seem to understand that I wasnt just tired of a day or week of work.
That I was drawing the line of losing my 7th job to anxiety and depresson.
That I spent a good 30 minutes of the end of last night's shift sobbing and hyperventilating in a corner of the stockroom, hidden by boxes. Trying and failing to go to the pharmacist for any kind of help because I was terrified of my manager finding me and thinking I was being lazy.
That I've felt closer and closer to this for weeks
That I felt like I'd finally broken, and even said as much to boyfriend.
That boyfriend stayed on the line with me the whole drive home because he was afraid of what might happen if he didnt (was sobbing then too. i'd been sent home early)
Her answer to all this?
"We all get stressed at work. You know what you need? You need to go inside, take a hot bath, and watch some comedies. Do you like comedies?"
"er... yes...but.."
"Like American Pie? Do you like American Pie?"
"Not really my kind of humor..."
"You should watch American Pie, it's hil/aaaar/ious! :D Or that one movie with.. with... with that guy... Dwayne? Dwayne... something... mmm... the Rock? And that one guy? :D"
"Ma'am... I've had days off. I've taken a number of days off in a row. Even demanded who days just to myself. When I get back to work, I freak out. It's like I never relaxed at all"
"Yes, you must find time to relax :D"
"....but it never feels like it's enough to help."
"Yes, you must make time! Tell everyone to leave you alone and take time to yourself :D"
"...." (even /work/?!) "Well, you see.... I was thinking that I might end up needing disability or a long time away from the work field to recuperate or something. Because otherwise... I just don't know what to do anymore...."
"Yes! :D a vacation is lovely! Do you like the beach? because you could take a vacation and spend all the time at the beach and getting the tan :D Yes, you should do that"
"Well... i do have vacation scheduled, as well as a doctor's appointment, but..."
"Excellent! :D A vacation will do you good :) A vacation on the beach"
"....yes, but that's a while away... I don't know what to do about the two work days I have left until the appointment. I don't think I can go in again. I can't... besides, all these patterns are happening again, and I'm pulling my hair out quite litterally, and picking my skin, and.. and..."
"You need to go inside, take a hot bath, and watch American Pie. :D"
Are those you love begging you to call a Crisis Hotline?
Feel like you may indeed need to call a Crisis Hotline?
Don't.
Or don't call a local version of the number.
...if you live in my area.
I got a lady who, between my bawling and her heavy accent, didn't seem to understand that I wasnt just tired of a day or week of work.
That I was drawing the line of losing my 7th job to anxiety and depresson.
That I spent a good 30 minutes of the end of last night's shift sobbing and hyperventilating in a corner of the stockroom, hidden by boxes. Trying and failing to go to the pharmacist for any kind of help because I was terrified of my manager finding me and thinking I was being lazy.
That I've felt closer and closer to this for weeks
That I felt like I'd finally broken, and even said as much to boyfriend.
That boyfriend stayed on the line with me the whole drive home because he was afraid of what might happen if he didnt (was sobbing then too. i'd been sent home early)
Her answer to all this?
"We all get stressed at work. You know what you need? You need to go inside, take a hot bath, and watch some comedies. Do you like comedies?"
"er... yes...but.."
"Like American Pie? Do you like American Pie?"
"Not really my kind of humor..."
"You should watch American Pie, it's hil/aaaar/ious! :D Or that one movie with.. with... with that guy... Dwayne? Dwayne... something... mmm... the Rock? And that one guy? :D"
"Ma'am... I've had days off. I've taken a number of days off in a row. Even demanded who days just to myself. When I get back to work, I freak out. It's like I never relaxed at all"
"Yes, you must find time to relax :D"
"....but it never feels like it's enough to help."
"Yes, you must make time! Tell everyone to leave you alone and take time to yourself :D"
"...." (even /work/?!) "Well, you see.... I was thinking that I might end up needing disability or a long time away from the work field to recuperate or something. Because otherwise... I just don't know what to do anymore...."
"Yes! :D a vacation is lovely! Do you like the beach? because you could take a vacation and spend all the time at the beach and getting the tan :D Yes, you should do that"
"Well... i do have vacation scheduled, as well as a doctor's appointment, but..."
"Excellent! :D A vacation will do you good :) A vacation on the beach"
"....yes, but that's a while away... I don't know what to do about the two work days I have left until the appointment. I don't think I can go in again. I can't... besides, all these patterns are happening again, and I'm pulling my hair out quite litterally, and picking my skin, and.. and..."
"You need to go inside, take a hot bath, and watch American Pie. :D"
seriously? I don't understand how people like that even have their job...
As for going in to work those two days...having been in a situation like that myself, I thing if you're not feeling well enough to work, call in sick. I know that it may cause problems with work, but if you can't actually do the work, then being there and crying is not going to do any good. I understand that it's hard to make that decision because you do need to pay the rent and everything, and it IS very hard not having a steady income, but if you keep pushing yourself to do things you are not able to do, eventually you have a breakdown and lose the job anyway...unless you have a super understanding boss.
What I've found with myself is, the harder I push myself, the longer it takes to recover. I think you should take the chance, call in sick, and get a note from the doctor for the missed days, and also make sure the doc understands the problem. I had to write everything down before I went to see my doctor, because I tried to explain the previous time I saw her, and I just couldn't explain how bad things really are.