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Where there's an up.. there's a down..
13 years ago
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Rawr!
and a big down that is.
Only last week I was so excited and happy and now.. well shit has not hit the fan; it has however hit rock bottom.
Over the past few days I've been completely restless; waking up at least every hour or so not able to breathe very well. I felt like shit because my partner, Zy had his sister visiting so he wasn't around much.
I have no idea what to do in one of my assignments and have totally lost my appetite this week to the point where all I've been eating is potato, crisps and pot noodles (unhealthy I know but Flump likes them).
So I thought you know, maybe I should go out and get of campus so me and two of my friends went out to the local town and had a few drinks (J2o for me) and then had a bit of a dance in the nightclub. All of a sudden I began to feel really sick so we had to cut our night short for me to go home. Which made me feel really bad coz my friends really wanted to stay out. Needless to say as soon as I entered the room in halls I was straight at the sink.
I then signed online after recovering to see if Zy was online, I thought he would help to cheer me up.. instead he made me feel worse by ending what we had by saying he "preferred us as friends." This made me really upset and confused me considering he was the one who wanted us to be more than friends in the firstplace. I really thought we had something going; he didn't even care about Flump, he accepted it and was happy. Now I'm just really confused. I feel like I've done something wrong...
Now I wish I could drink... :(
Only last week I was so excited and happy and now.. well shit has not hit the fan; it has however hit rock bottom.
Over the past few days I've been completely restless; waking up at least every hour or so not able to breathe very well. I felt like shit because my partner, Zy had his sister visiting so he wasn't around much.
I have no idea what to do in one of my assignments and have totally lost my appetite this week to the point where all I've been eating is potato, crisps and pot noodles (unhealthy I know but Flump likes them).
So I thought you know, maybe I should go out and get of campus so me and two of my friends went out to the local town and had a few drinks (J2o for me) and then had a bit of a dance in the nightclub. All of a sudden I began to feel really sick so we had to cut our night short for me to go home. Which made me feel really bad coz my friends really wanted to stay out. Needless to say as soon as I entered the room in halls I was straight at the sink.
I then signed online after recovering to see if Zy was online, I thought he would help to cheer me up.. instead he made me feel worse by ending what we had by saying he "preferred us as friends." This made me really upset and confused me considering he was the one who wanted us to be more than friends in the firstplace. I really thought we had something going; he didn't even care about Flump, he accepted it and was happy. Now I'm just really confused. I feel like I've done something wrong...
Now I wish I could drink... :(
If you're still heading to the meet this weekend, I'll buy you any flavour J20 you want x3 Hope to see you there <3
And yes I will be heading to the meet this weekend, although not sure what time depending on what time my mum goes shopping. I might buy my own bus fare though to make it easier and meet with everyone else. x <3
Also, can't wait for this weekend <3