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I never ever update regularly. sorry guys XD but considering the scarce few comments I get, I really don't think anyone keeps up on these anyway. unless they have an interesting title. maybe not even then.

So yesterday I broke up with my boyfriend.
and it wasn't because he did anything wrong. in fact, I think I'd have to search forever just to find someone who is so sweet, caring, and patient as he was.
unfortunately, there was absolutely no spark. zero. when we kissed I didn't really feel anything (yes folks, that was my first kiss). I could tell that he was really beginning to get emotionally involved with me, and he liked me a great deal more than I liked him. It's because he is such a nice guy that I wanted to break it off, because he deserves someone who loves him to death. We're still going to be friends, and hang out, because I do legitamately enjoy spending time with him, it's just that...I don't feel like that about him, and I don't want him wasting his time, money, and emotions on me when I don't think it's going to get anywhere. Not to mention if I let it go on too long, it'd hurt him ten times more.
I also feel bad because I'm so relieved. I don't have to feel like I'm lying to him, or forcing things, or pretending. I feel bad because I know he's going through a hard time whereas I'm pretty darn happy because I can just enjoy myself with him without feeling uneasy at how the relationship is going.
Since I'm his first girlfriend (and he's my first boyfriend) I'm hoping he'll be okay.
all in all, I learned a lot, and I definitely need to get to know other guys and date around so I can understand myself better, and what works/doesn't work.
Basically, I took the hardest baby step towards understanding myself and relationships.


Homework is same old, same old. too much, but not overwhelming.
caught up on young justice.
dying every week waiting for Saturday so I can watch Legend of korra.
FANGIRLING over how much I love the new owl city songs.
snuggling my adorable nephew.
enjoying the heat wave (80 degrees for the past 4 days!!!!) and thunderstorms.
Reading up a storm
doing a lot of sketches, art, etc (most of my stuff updates to tumblr...I actually need to scan in some stuff pretty soon)
revisiting my oc Pria. writing down more of her backstory. unfortunately, that Roleplay is on hiatus right now because my rp partner is in the navy and they are apparently working my poor bff to the ground.

THE AVENGERS WAS AWESOME.
and Dark Shadows was amusing.

I'll be going to the ice caves this Saturday, so hopefully I'll be able to take some fun pictures- also, I think a trip to the dunes is in order, SOON. it NEEDS to happen! >:Y


well, until next time I randomly update again,
over and out
~Fae