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hospital SCARY! job/jobless SCARY! crazy SCARY!!
13 years ago
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Everyone remember how I was taking some days off of work to try and deal with my anxiety/depression? No? Well, long story short... it's not working.
Among a number of other times, I had a very severe breakdown yesterday when I got a call from work. Wasn't even a 'don't bother coming back in' call, it was just like 'so...insurance says your stuff is still pending. -_- and.. we haven't heard a word from you. at all'.
You guys, I. flipped. out.
I dissolved into hysterics, it was like I was the Hulk, only sad instead of mad. Like... the Inconsolable Hulk instead. Inconsolable Tang? "Tang CRY!"
And after I thought I had calmed down, Boyfriend and I began talking about getting better and returning to work and such....
I broke down again. Boyfriend told me I was having a full-fledged panic attack. Hyperventilating, sobbing, howling. This was at the /THOUGHT/ of returning to work, guys.
Honestly, I don't know what I'm gonna do anymore.
Well, I kind of do.
I'm going into in=patient treatment tomorrow. They're gonna evaluate me and see if I need to stay. After that, who knows?
But about my job.... that's a whole 'nother problem.
I want to bring in money of my own, to pay for my own expenses, and buy fun things. But I need a job I can work. And I don't know what that is anymore. I'm trying to fish around for honest, real, work-at-home jobs, but that's... not the easiest thing in the world. Supposedly, walgreens has data entry positions like that, but I can't find anything about them. That'd be cool if it exists, i'd get to stay with the same company.
I could try disability, but that, to my knowledge, is just as hard to get, because so many people have abused the system. And Northwest Florida, in particular, is not very big on taking mental health as seriously.
But that doesn't bring a whole lot in.... Boyfriend says he'll take care of me as long as I take care of the house, and I have to realize that it will be hard also. And I have to have some source of income. EBT (food stamps) if nothing else.
I go in for evaluation tomorrow.
I may be going into hospital tomorrow.
Ah... it's scary ;_:
do they let you bring anything? I'm gonna be all alone............ but... that's good, right? But... can I bring /anything/? Books? drawing pad? comp + tablet?
How long will I be there?
What's going to happen?
scary! D:
Among a number of other times, I had a very severe breakdown yesterday when I got a call from work. Wasn't even a 'don't bother coming back in' call, it was just like 'so...insurance says your stuff is still pending. -_- and.. we haven't heard a word from you. at all'.
You guys, I. flipped. out.
I dissolved into hysterics, it was like I was the Hulk, only sad instead of mad. Like... the Inconsolable Hulk instead. Inconsolable Tang? "Tang CRY!"
And after I thought I had calmed down, Boyfriend and I began talking about getting better and returning to work and such....
I broke down again. Boyfriend told me I was having a full-fledged panic attack. Hyperventilating, sobbing, howling. This was at the /THOUGHT/ of returning to work, guys.
Honestly, I don't know what I'm gonna do anymore.
Well, I kind of do.
I'm going into in=patient treatment tomorrow. They're gonna evaluate me and see if I need to stay. After that, who knows?
But about my job.... that's a whole 'nother problem.
I want to bring in money of my own, to pay for my own expenses, and buy fun things. But I need a job I can work. And I don't know what that is anymore. I'm trying to fish around for honest, real, work-at-home jobs, but that's... not the easiest thing in the world. Supposedly, walgreens has data entry positions like that, but I can't find anything about them. That'd be cool if it exists, i'd get to stay with the same company.
I could try disability, but that, to my knowledge, is just as hard to get, because so many people have abused the system. And Northwest Florida, in particular, is not very big on taking mental health as seriously.
But that doesn't bring a whole lot in.... Boyfriend says he'll take care of me as long as I take care of the house, and I have to realize that it will be hard also. And I have to have some source of income. EBT (food stamps) if nothing else.
I go in for evaluation tomorrow.
I may be going into hospital tomorrow.
Ah... it's scary ;_:
do they let you bring anything? I'm gonna be all alone............ but... that's good, right? But... can I bring /anything/? Books? drawing pad? comp + tablet?
How long will I be there?
What's going to happen?
scary! D:
catwithpen
~catwithpen
That is scary. I hope they can help you *hugs*
tieran
~tieran
OP
I hope so too.... i still haven't gone in yet. Nervous...
Serena_Chaotica
~serenachaotica
Sorry I missed this. Hope you are doing better. I could have given you some info. Again sorry about missing this. If you need some info on disability I may be able to help.
