I feel foolish to try asking adults for help and ended up with cops asking me a dozen questions just last thursday to be sure I am not a "threat" to kids. Even though they didn't take me away for immediate help, and I declined there idea of immediate help, my gf's family lost a foster child and my gf cant live there anymore because of the daycare and being guilty by my accomplice. I have done nothing of wrong and yet they can take action against a close friend for being an accomplice? I am so stressed today because its a long weekend and there is nothing i can do today to clear things up for us. Thankfully Gem and other furs cheer me up with proof that I am not dangerous, just a bit different then what grownups decide ish normal. I can still be a responsible, caring, respectful, adult, when around anyone, especially kids. I have done so for more than 10 years and will continue to do so!! I hate being adult and having adult thoughts get in the way of what i really like and least of all when they get mixed up together. Ish big big owie and not happen often and never around other cubs. Just when alone and stressed. The real problem that makes me start thinking that way ish i have to many adult expectations that me ish strugling to all get done right but me ish having trouble coping with stress to keep thoughts from fighting with each other and yelling mean things that aren't true but get me in trouble when me try to explain what me really needs help with. I really would rather watch mlp than girls gone wild. Is that really that abnormal for a 25 year old guy? Can I not take proper care of a child who I do find "attractive" for so many reasons other than "Pedo bear goes to Disneyland". Seriously, I care more about kids than that. I am appalled that others continue to insist, and do there best to get me to fess up to their interpretation of truth. I refuse to believe I am that monster and am sad I ever believed it myself. I am simply a confused child doing its best to stay true to my own joys in life while doing my best to satisfy everyone's need of me to be the adult they expect me to be while sorting out my own needs in a responsible manner. It is not fun planing and sorting what I think others expect me to be and do today without thinking something awful others might claim of me and i have to debate mentally is not true while still trying to do my job, or carry a conversation with friends, or concentrate on a final exam. Honestly ish a nightmare, but I am not a threat or danger to anyone!!!