this is a reluctant update because i dont really have any good news
mom had to take off work right after her first chemo, we were told everyone
is different, some bad some ok.. well shes bad. there are days she can't
do anything at all and i've been like a house nurse i guess? cooking cleaning
and helping her with anything she needs like showers or getting round the house
handling her bills and talking to everyone, her work, her insurance, disability etc

i got her to go to a few cancer support meetings but she doesnt like them
and im exhausted trying to juggle all the new info about cancer or aid or
medical or whatever, just so fucking much, i feel like my mind is going to
explode. she gets so frustrated some days and so angry i dont know
how to help her calm down so i just let her rant until she runs out of
steam. 5 more months of this, til chemo is done.. i wanna say i can
do it but sometimes im so confused and frustrated myself trying
to keep everything together and both our lives running.

sorry to just update with whining, i just dont know what to do sometimes
i need to get my commissions done, im sorry commissioners im still
working on them when i get some time to myself.