Well its that time again for them who care to read still. I bin kind of in limbo over the last few month's, I feel my My old cold side coming back. My loneliness Is starting to fade away in to nothing. I no longer care about much in my life... 31 years old.... What have I done so wrong in my life in order to be where I am... I know I am no saint, There is nothing I can do about it. I have tried so hard in my life to understand what makes me so different. And I just can't put my finger on it.. I find it hard at times for me to relate with some fur's. Is it my job? Or My being open and not shy? Or is it just me all together?

I enjoy Tech. But can't afford to keep up with it most of the time. I also enjoy cars. But don't have the funds right now to have a car to restore right now.... Use to enjoy making videos. PumpCore fell apart. And The cam I used took a shit. Now I don't really have much to make videos about. I just can't find something I am excited about it. And I think this makes it hard for me to relate to some friends..

well I'm going to leave it at this for now.