Well I just don't know what to do anymore guys. A good friend of mine and I got involved with each other a few months ago but strictly as friends. Though I could tell she was definitely feeling more than just friends. Well after her birthday a few months later she started acting odd and i didn't know it until now but she started seeing a counselor. Since about that time (4 months ago) I can't get her to do anything we used to do as friends now. I mean I'm being treated more like an ex bf rather than just a friend which is all we have ever said we are to each other. However just after she started acting funny I told her that I realized my feelings for her were stronger than friends. Which she then proceeded to blast me with alot of really negative things that sounded very practiced and structured, not what people do in a moment of passion like that. Even for a s blunt of a person as she is, which is one thing i love about her, this just wasnt her.

Now I have a gift you might say for feeling people's emotions. Without them speaking I can stand next to them and tell what they are feeling. I know when we held each other I could feel something inside her that was more than friends, now after being with her therapist she seems afraid everytime I ask her even to go on a trail ride with our horses, which we keep them at the same place. Honestly if not for them it would be even harder because we would almost never see each other then now that we have stopped having dinner and such.

I just know I don't want to give up on her. After all I couldn't say I was in love if i bailed on her when we started having issues. I'm planning to fight to my grave if that is what it takes. No matter what I will always be there for her I know. besides with what I feel now and what I know she felt before when I held her, if this isn't love I don't know what it is. And if I give up now, what will my pledge be worth later?