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13 years ago
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The family's situation here hasn't been too great in the past three years since we got evicted. Nothing's really changed much except my aunt got cancer a year after we moved, and I've gone to college, and that ball's been rolling.
Individually I've been job hunting and I'm still passing with about a 3.5 GPA in school. My academic future kind of scares the shit out of me. I don't wanna fail or go down the wrong path, only to realize I need to find another interest and get a different degree. I kinda feel like there's a huge weight on my shoulders since no one's graduated from college in my family, or even attempted to go, at that. Jobwise I'm the only one working right now, too. Again, that fact frustrates and frightens me. If I lose my job, then what?
I'm quite frightened of the future in general, to be honest. I asked my grandma "What do you have planned in terms of any long term goals?" and she just sort of muttered "Well...um..." That's all I got. Aside from getting a BA, I've really got no fucking idea beyond that. I should probably be looking into where I can use that degree now so I'm not fucking clueless when I graduate college.
I guess I need to step back and take a breath or two, maybe lighten up and start taking things a day at a time and be in the here and now instead of off 4/5 years from now.
Individually I've been job hunting and I'm still passing with about a 3.5 GPA in school. My academic future kind of scares the shit out of me. I don't wanna fail or go down the wrong path, only to realize I need to find another interest and get a different degree. I kinda feel like there's a huge weight on my shoulders since no one's graduated from college in my family, or even attempted to go, at that. Jobwise I'm the only one working right now, too. Again, that fact frustrates and frightens me. If I lose my job, then what?
I'm quite frightened of the future in general, to be honest. I asked my grandma "What do you have planned in terms of any long term goals?" and she just sort of muttered "Well...um..." That's all I got. Aside from getting a BA, I've really got no fucking idea beyond that. I should probably be looking into where I can use that degree now so I'm not fucking clueless when I graduate college.
I guess I need to step back and take a breath or two, maybe lighten up and start taking things a day at a time and be in the here and now instead of off 4/5 years from now.
BTW, can you code in C, Perl or Java? I might know somebody.
Best of luck to you! It's good that you're thinking so much about your future already. Some people don't plan ahead at all, and end up with a degree, and nowhere to work.